The Beginning

I used to dream that I could fly Just above the whispered clouds Beneath the somber sky I had a dream I was alive I dreamt that love would never die, goodbye Dreams were cheap and hope was easy (So light) The forgeries of life deceiving (So bright) And as I glided to the ground (So long) Calcified, the concrete weighed me down (Cruel, cruel world) Your wings are holding up the sky Dear God, I had dreamt that I could fly Alkaline the burning frost Has blistered deep beneath my bones And winter spat its hatred Cold and coiled, black and deep As it called me ever further Where evil burns and never sleeps I once had prayers that found no words Fragile things I've never spoken Through my lips passed eulogies For all the oaths that I have broken And still the ghost of hope was haunting Through the dark to save the living And still beneath it all I dreamt That God could be forgiving Your wings are holding up the sky Dear God, I dreamt that I could fly When I survey the wondrous cross On which the prince of glory died My richest gain I count but loss And pour contempt on all my pride I am the worst of all things here My crooked, black and lying heart Still spits its bitter fear, fear And each and every sparrow They flutter to the ground before they die So please God don't forget me I have been with you all along, you have not noticed me Nervosa now felt more ashamed than ever before Why would you still care enough to save me Even after seeing the horrible things I have done? Why do you remain here even now? She asked, sobbing Because, here is where you are, the Lamb said softly And I long to be with you See from His head, His hands, His feet Sorrow and love flow mingled down Did e'er such love and sorrow meet Or thorns compose so rich a crown? To Christ, who won for sinners' grace By bitter grief and anguish sore Be praise from all the ransomed race Forever and forevermore