Pain [Explicit Album Version]

I finally moved out my momma house Got a happy home Only thing f***ed up, Daddy gone (Gone forever man) Listen up this is real s*** (Real s***) It's f***ed up when u got nobody to share it with (F***ed up) Give my last so my grandma can see me now (See me now) Smilin tellin everybody bout her grandbaby (her grandbaby) T-Lady hold on all I got is you (Mama) It's f***ed up what I done put me and my mama through What's happenin' Ivory I know you lookin' down watchin' me Everyday I got yo kids fresh from head to feet (All of em) Wish I can put u in the Bentley with the brown ? I wish we never would've went out to that club On the road to riches mane lost a flock of n****s ? a whole block of n****s N****s bite the hand that feed em I done seen it all Jus got a call, Slo dead, not my f***in dawg I never thought this pain last this many years I, I never thought this pain last this many years Still in tears I, I never thought this pain last this many years I lost my daddy in a heartbeat Real talk eyes turnin right in front me Ever since I saw that s***, it hunt me Pray for me cause I shake in my f***in sleep Wish ? I shoulda put him under my wing and I miss him n**** I told ? way back stop ridin with ya pack He ain't listen And now my n**** right back in penitentury he don't listen I lost Ivory and it f***ed me up My whole life changed N**** put me up in beast mode My heart cold And as the years role I wish that he could have everything I got And a lil mo' Yo kids love me n**** My kids and yo kids call each other sistera and brothers You forever my lil hustler Just saw yo gangsta at the car lot n**** and a tear dropped n**** I never thought this pain last this many years I, I never thought this pain last this many years Still in tears I, I never thought this pain last this many years Seem like it was yesterday The mo money I get this s*** hurt I thought that would take the stress away To see u smilin with yo chain countin money n**** When Trina pulled you on stage you was stuntin' n**** But through it all mane you kno how we rock n**** From the yo to the block to the hospital Never again would I have another big dawg But ya mama and kids I got em all but I I never thought this pain last this many years I, I never thought this pain last this many years Still in tears I, I never thought this pain last this many years