Blind Faith (feat. Elodie)

Dear God I've never done this before But I thought I'd reach out man I need your support I feel like an idiot, just me and these walls But theres meaning behind the scenery and I'm fiending for more I don't complain much But life's dealt me a shit hand Tried to pull me under Faster than quicksand I've been resilient, struggling I really am Really I'm just looking for a way to be the bigger man Lone wolf since 5 or 6 Shit, I've had to be a survivalist And now I'm 24 and had my childhood missed And I guess I'm wishing back to a time before this shit Before all the fights and the sleepless nights Before mum relapsed about a thousand times Before she was diagnosed by a man in a white coat Before the scars were how we're now defined I've been searching for the meaning through all of this I thought you might grant me an audience I wanna believe in you, but it's hard as shit Cos I can't see you But you might exist Amen Knock knock who's there, I can't find you I've been searching everyday I'm so sick of all the hiding Please oh please just show your face Why are all the lights so blinding That just seem to block my way I'll keep walking and keep trying through the night, I've got blind faith Dear Son I thought I'd write back I Made you in 9-2 And you're still on that right track Proud of you and how you handle my tests And every time you come through the other side, I'm really impressed Apologies if I seem harsh If every, task I sent left your heartstrings scarred But did you stop to think, when life seems hard I'm moulding you to be stronger than you think you are I got all your prayers, didn't miss your call once I'm hearing every cry of my every daughter and son I can, count every hair on your head and tear that you've cried I know every single fear that you're holding inside I know your mum's unwell and I let that pass But without her being her, you wouldn't of grown this fast Everything has purpose, one day you will see That I've loved you since I made you unconditionally, G Knock knock who's there, I can't find you I've been searching everyday I'm so sick of all the hiding Please oh please just show your face Why are all the lights so blinding That just seem to block my way I'll keep walking and keep trying through the night, I've got blind faith Hey it's me again Talking to the walls Waiting for your reply But getting none at all I wanna know you're real Believe it in my heart But it's hard to believe in light when you're sleeping in the dark I've, been digging through your book like an archive Been looking to the stars in the night sky I wonder why I feel connected like the Wi-fi And where this all fits, sitting on your timeline And is it coming to the end? Cos the worlds burning Hard to stay above the surface in this dirt furnace What's the purpose of speaking life into something you created If you don't help em out when they're all hurting But all your revelations happen everyday Could be more than chance? Anyways, I thought I'd pray It's like I'm finding faith facing the fire I just pray you hear my cries n I'm not wasting my time John Knock knock who's there, I can't find you I've been searching everyday I'm so sick of all the hiding please oh please just show your face Why are all the lights so blinding That just seem to block my way I'll keep walking and keep trying through the night, I've got blind faith Dear Son I'm sorry Earth's stuck in this state But what did you expect, greed's running your place I gave everyone a chance, when I started your race But worshipping the money and the mirror, what a mistake In the, garden I made, it started with snakes And that snake told you all to just lie to my face Thought I'd create a paradise an incredible place But now it's looking like a wasteland, starting to break I love you more than anything But everyone hates It's hard, when your own children want your head on a stake It's hard, you've never seen me but I'm wanting your faith You'll never understand my ways, but I just wanted to say All the loved ones you miss are here safe with me And if I posted these letters, would you have faith in me? I've given you countless signs, now it's up to you Sincerely your father And I'll see you soon