Grey Skies

This time lapse impasse keeping it unethical Stalled in all direction, restrained by hypotheticals Imprisoned how I felt forced the sentence on myself Waiting isolated in this solitary cell From an internal wall that’s delaying every task This grey sky’s a blue screen, bracing for the crash Reality is different, covered by this mask I see no looking past with this shadow overcast Face the truth, but we can't so we make lies Take pride, and leave that doubt by the wayside Drop a match in the clouds and watch the flames rise Fire water falling from these grey skies Trapped beneath a grey sky feeling so uncertain Self-imposed and nervous, over and it’s curtains Thoughts of any subject seem to amplify the consequence Seeking a solution, all I really need is confidence Wishing for decision like I'm faced with no delay Second-guessing second guesses up until they go away Still I can’t release even though I know it’s vain Cause the slightest imperfection always drives me so insane Writing lyrics, writing code, I'm just hoping that it flows Just a function or a verse want to do it with the pros Think about longevity, to never be disposed I always want acceptance, you know just how it goes Forest for the trees, see the sky for the clouds There’s a maze in this haze and I'm wandering around Barely floating in this storm, I'm clutching to the sound Feel I'm ‘bout to drown from this torrent raining down Keeping things adrift, but look who’s at the helm This ship’s about to capsize, I'm feeling overwhelmed Failure faces everyone, teachers and the students Plus I know I'm capable and tell myself to do it Show and then improve it so I did and took it up Compromise is fine but how good is good enough Awaiting motivation from a dozen other mottos I just need a path, someone tell me what to follow From an internal wall that’s delaying every task This grey sky’s a blue screen, bracing for the crash Reality is different, covered by this mask I see no looking past with this shadow overcast Face the truth, but we can't so we make lies Take pride, and leave that doubt by the wayside Drop a match in the clouds and watch the flames rise Fire water falling from these grey skies Rain clouds break down my cardboard wall of sound Wishing it would clear but it's all around and how Deep can I fall, seems there's no letting up Pressed against the pavement to prevent getting up Recessed into the basement, need to step it up Affliction or addiction, I can never get enough Fear of the success got me working under pressure Plotting possibilities beyond what I can measure Call it over-engineered, impossibly prepared Til I'm standing still in place on an endless flight of stairs And everything spins out, worse than I’d imagined Terrified of failure even though I make it happen Looking in the mirror and upset at what’s inside Always been my biggest critic, it’s the only way I thrive It’s a mix of good and bad so I take it all in stride Gotta live it up, otherwise it’s just survive An antiquated backlash to those that would control me Jumping up on stage 'til the rhythm couldn't hold me Ushered in an era, kept it classic feeling lonely Never leave me only love me tell me you're my one and only All I’ve got is my word and my code and my flow If you're taking this away then there's nowhere else to go We cultivate it, seed it, and we got to watch it grow Even though it all accelerates we meant to take it slow Feared we couldn't make it, scared of empty shows But pushing past your limits is the only way to know Praying to the past, waiting, tell me when to go Rise above the clouds, pause and check to look below Searching for a challenge I was ready blow for blow So we got up in its face, and we're standing toe to toe Measuring ourselves, won't compare to so and so Arriving from the future, we are here to overthrow