love, pt. 2

I never woulda thought I see eyes that were beautiful Like aqua dew against the window the brain was remedial And that was back in 2010 just you and me Around the corner after school we would often meet It was okay for us While everyone scandalous we had a life relationship that was sprinkled with angel dust And I had lust for you like succubus till my world had collapse And even thru dark you had offered me a relapse Father time Father time Rewind me back to the times Where I would see the world thru her wonderful slanted eyes That was around the time that my cousin met his demise You came into my life and it was the biggest surprise We was different but we made it work I aint even need a Sunday cause u were my church But baby it was hard to love cause we loved in world full of lies Cause you thought of suicide when you looked me into the eyes I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no no Portraits painting these canvases of ya dreams What it seems that you had had this mundane image of me I really tried to work it out But everytime we tried to talk you woulda shut me out I never woulda understood ya mind because it was different than everybody Yeah you hang in out with dem but I see you a different body I was tryna tell you different you wasn't takin my side I aint tryna be betrothed to the greatest rapper alive And I was sure you woulda understood I'm too introvert The egotistical was in ya ear and I had to shirk In the corners I lurked so many tears I had dispersed Because I saw that purple lady who dragged down to the dirt We used roamed city often Now we never talkin Daddy beating me without ya love it gets exhausting Dirty ass nigga why you leave me in darkness Loved you to the point where I humored most of ya pride But now I think of suicide when I'm lookin into ya eyes I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no no Thought I could control myself Instead I lost my faith Too busy for my heart cause I was wrestling self hate And now I see you cryin it ain't nothing to debate But if I lose you now I might shatter for I break but it's cool I want you happy no more these reparations, no more of a miscarriage no more of domestic violence I had took a phone call and spoke to ya uncle about it He cordial and knew there was nothin funny about it I had never felt a chill that was severing most my spine Until that day you packed up and left me here all behind It happens for a reason or universal design Before I loaded up this nine a vibration tapped on my line Told me in them red letters that I was forever yours and that you saw me crumbling And you couldn't take it no more It sounded more so like a reach and instead I chose to ignore But I ain't know it was so deep that you let it all take it's course And that September I had wondered why I was still in my ego I guess my chest was cold and influenced by just the c notes These instruments was heavy and I ain't know how to cope Until I figured you had lost yo mind and all hope And now I'm struggling to understand pleading to god why I thought that happiness was oour guidance in mere disguise And in knowing that I knew I was only pleading to you Cause in this world there aint no love and that happens to be the truth So I don't think coincidence really hardly even describes When I was on the edge and you felt that half the time Because I just wanted drugs and my fame to pop off these lines Cause of that you hung yourself without me it was suicide I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no more I don't even look at streetlights the same no no I see sunshine All the time My mind stuck on you I can't seem to shake the thoughts I have of you My baby I see sunshine All the time My mind stuck on you I can't fill my voids cause the holes you left me My baby Ain't around I been feeling like they wanna take me down I must have a thing they wanna take now Imma have to go hard and shake the whole town The whole town And when you ain't around I just get to thinking and I hate it now I got to hit the stu and make a new sound I got to hit the stu and make a new sound A new sound My baby loves me I know I just don't listen My heart is sacred I know but I have to sin I'm not perfect I'm not beautiful But if you ain't here for me Then whatchu do it for I'm not perfect I'm not beautiful But if you ain't here for me Then whatchu do it for I see sunshine All the time My mind stuck on you I can't seem to shake the thoughts I have of you My baby I see sunshine All the time My mind stuck on you I can't fill my voids cause the holes you left me My baby