New Old Me

This is ridiculous I feel like Richard Sherman, I'm too deep in the zone right now I had too much tonight, I swear I can't be alone right now I haven't slept in two days, I'm drifting off into my own right now I haven't felt myself lately, you'll have to fix that at home right now I just texted my ex-ex, I shouldn't have used my phone right now She blowing up on my messages, I ain't trying to act too grown right now What you say to me - I don't appreciate your tone right now Now you tell me you love me - 'cause I told you I'm about to be on right now Just ittle blown right now Tryna sort the whole thing out About to shut the whole thing down Baby, I'm way too gone right now I'm in my own cloud, I'm so out I'm trying to find my soul now Why you gotta yell at me, I'm just tryna get you alone now You saying I'm the sole reason I sold out - damn Well where you expect me to go now I just need my vices and I know I got a lot of them A list of some bad habits, staying faithful is on top of them Don't be mad I'm faded You took too long, I waited I told you I'd be patient But there's nothing left to save it Don't be mad I'm faded You took too long, I waited I told you I'd be patient But there's nothing left to save it Sometimes I lie to you Look you straight in the eyes and sell it right to you I'm one hell of a guy, it's no surprise to you You say you'll leave but you won't Supposed to have a guilty conscience Should feel bad, but I don't Sometimes I lie to you Look you straight in the eyes and sell it right to you I'm one hell of a guy, it's no surprise to you You say you'll leave but you won't Supposed to have a guilty conscience Should feel bad, but I don't Your biggest fear was falling for me and commitment was mine You feel entitled to my loyalty and baby that's fine Tonight my only focus is in front of my eyes Cause timing is money and money is time There's PartyNextDoor but I need you at mine Told you once before I got the things that you like Tell all of your friends 'cause tonight is our night I'm balling on high, watch how I provide I'm ashamed of everything I got Spent so much on everything I bought You lift the weight of the pain I brought I'm looking for a different way to frame my thoughts I told you lies but it ain't my fault You love me too much to ever think I won't You hold the weight of the pain I brought I'm looking for a different way to frame my thoughts Don't be mad I'm faded You took too long, I waited I told you I'd be patient But there's nothing left to save it Don't be mad I'm faded You took too long, I waited I told you I'd be patient But there's nothing left to save it Sometimes I lie to you Look you straight in the eyes and sell it right to you I'm one hell of a guy, it's no surprise to you You say you'll leave but you won't Supposed to have a guilty conscience Should feel bad, but I don't Sometimes I lie to you Look you straight in the eyes and sell it right to you I'm one hell of a guy, it's no surprise to you You say you'll leave but you won't Supposed to have a guilty conscience Should feel bad, but I don't All my past decisions leaving lasting impressions Wonder when I went missing or if this is my cry help They told I'm not the sum of the worst things that I've done But you still think I can't see past the reflections of myself You think I'm acting crazy? I had a little - maybe These words just got me wavey, didn't mean to get to get us thrown out You say I'm back to old me, I yell at you to just hold me If we been here before then show me We going home now I can't believe you How could you do this to me After everything