Letters

Ay, love, I been meaning to talk to you I’m stuck between leaving and leaving it all to you See, when we’re agreeing, my heart is beating right through you But when you’re deceiving, my heart is bleeding, it’s true, too This letter is composed To the most important thing that my heart will ever hold So I started with a goal See, I hope that the roll of the flow will just work out And I know that a rose is supposed to assert how Much she mean to me but even we agree that loving just lead to bees and the birds now It’s easily perceived to be free of grief and hurt how You lessen people, sometimes you less than evil Why not give everyone love if heaven’s equal? This a message to the people and I see you My life a movie, a doozy, you making this a regal And the sequel is probably how you make my heart beat, too And even though I hate you, love, you know I still need you Oooohhhh, oooohhhh Yeah I know I’m the greatest, I proved that already But you is a movement that’s holding me back Can I lose you already? Searching my feelings, appealing to villain cuz there’s about twenty In my head, I’m kinda through with the using, abusing, it’s deadly And actually, the fact of me is tragedy can be found in the absence of fallacy Catastrophe is just as bad as you and me Think about it When the angels are singing loud and the mind is So powerful because you make me wanna scream and shout when I think about it And the thing about it is to ease my pain will please my brain But I need the pain, you see the flame is the center of my mental And my mental is my center, see, it all comes back around and this pencil just expresses it But the way you lessen shit gets me pissed off So I send you to the back of my brain This madness is insane, your actions are to blame It’s like knowing you got a death sentence, but you have to live with the pain That’s the way my life is That’s the way you made it, you crazy, you faded, you make me angry Praising god but who stays through days of true pain? New ways of how to wait That’s what you want me to think Dark, but it’s too late Can’t stop myself for the same reason I can’t stop my health See, death is inevitable Yet, I’m indebted to you Question: am I better than you? But we’re the same, so yes Can I ever get through to mesh with a clever group? Maybe a test, better letter would do But I can never get through To you This one to God, you know? Where were you when my father was missing? Where were you when I thought about slitting? Where were you when my mama was sick and we ain’t have a dollar to give And all of the kids was playing except for me cuz I was arguing with Why my brain so insane Why I go to a space in another place and I jump into different lanes like that Who are you, anyway? Where you been at? Sometimes I wanna chill and relax, but I never get that, damn I been crying too long, maybe I’m trying too hard You a force to be reckoned with, you a lion or nah? You a coward, you supposed to be God You supposed to be hard to figure out, I know what you are You a liar, a burden, a fire burning inside my uncertain mind and it’s hurtin’ I’m fucking pissed off You a tyrant, a giant, a piece of work And if I ain’t the boss of me, then I’m certain you just a bitch, God Damn, what if I could raise hell again? Cuz with some of my boys, it’s like the world we living in You ain’t God, you the devil, motherfucker Niggas getting girls pregnant and you tell ‘em to never love ‘em so they So they grow up fatherless with no pot to piss Impoverished cuz papa never wanted them to start this shit Damn, and he ain’t care about no scholarship Cuz knowledge is real nothing if God is real See, it comes back to you I feel like shit so then I run back to you You scumbag, this one rap is some fun facts about you So I don’t think that God’s a gift Cuz he fucks lives over and now I’m telling him to stop this shit I was there when your mama was sick How you think she stayed strong through the trauma and shit? When your father was out working for commas and shit There’s a reason, his whole life, ain’t no dollar to give Why you pondering this? While you was thinking about slitting, I was on a mission fixing problems and shit You ain’t gotta be fixed But anger’s a bottomless pit The savior, Xavier Think about that next time you call me a bitch Reason your brain so insane is the same for why Jesus was picked You have God in you through music, some call it a gift Arguing with me won’t fix these problems you spit It’s all about you, if you choose to move on and to live so I’m a saint and a coward, but when it rains, it showers The pain is ours, don’t hate my power You made me, it’s not flipped around You may be crazy but use it to spit your sound Quit your down movements, you was born from the truth And you should be using it to teach the youth To spread love and not shoot I’m not a gift, you’re right It’s really the person you fight Before your pen starts to write Just think about your life Yeah, nigga Think about your life Before your pen starts to write Huh, think about your life