Fiancé

I'm having trouble finding the path I think its cause you've been messing with me in your wrath Don't think I can drive while I'm behind your dash Board of all the shit you give me Baby it's just so sickening Yes you I love the things that I hate That's why in the mirror I said that I love you Be cranking up emotions my pops can't create Then unleashing some heat call me jack in the box boo I don't know what to believe You saying that I should leave You wanna tell me your grief I never knew you could heave Blame all your fuckups on me You should pop a cold xan Take a chill pill Cause you hot damn But we're going downhill I put our love in better hands Goodwill So I could lose all of our baggage on the treadmill You told me you don't care much what I have to say You're blending in with other exes I'm in disarray You told me you don't care much what I have to say And yet you expected me to call you my fiancé I spent the fourth of July writing music Dropped a beat first don't follow the rubric Mom and dad said my dreams seem lucid Save the world feeling blue champion's tunic New shit I've been filling a void Rewriting verses in September, got me feeling annoyed Friends got me working hard like I've been unemployed Recording and dance studios kept up my joy I'm so sorry so sorry apologies ain't enough But I love cotton candy colors sky blue with the puff Like I'm jiggling and grooving never wanna be cuffed I'm only 15 wondering if I'm enough I'm pondering my state if I'll make it out alive Do you drive got a permit? nah I've been writing these 5 Songs sharing all my grace since nobody shed theirs Shed tears for my homies with no parent and no heirs You told me you don't care much what I have to say You're blending in with other exes I'm in disarray You told me you don't care much what I have to say And yet you expected me to call you my fiancé, Fiancé