Dear Diary

Learned a couple chords on piano, so I could heal more, differently What is there to say, what do I know? How do I know what's meant for me? Wait, how did I end up here? I said nothing but the top from here last year Now i'm sitting bottom of the barrel Barely classified an adult I'm the horse without the saddle Someone's gotta get me out of here Yelling out Dear Diary Oh what an irony, How can I be less insincere? Yelling out Dear Diary Feed me a line right now wanna look like I got no fear Its so cold in this furnace London bridge is burning To whom it may concern, I'm so alone I've been living in my friends mums basement tryna get by Tryna get high Its so cold in this furnace London bridge is burning To whom it may concern, I'm so alone I wake up just to go back to sleep Days since I showered, 7 meals in a week Can't afford a penny for the thoughts that I think Everything and anything's a glass I never drink Dear Diary I wonder if ill find the love i rap about Cause every symptom of commitments gets backing out Can we please slow down This ain't a proposal Yeah I know you love me but I ain't the one to hold down Dear Diary I wonder if they like me cause I'm blowing up Or maybe its because I look so damn androgynous They/them/this/that You're so different I ain't really into girls but ill make an exception, for you See this is what they do but i ain't fall for that shit since when i was way back in school I'm just saying like straight girls don't give head anyways And I'm grown like fuck baby who you tryna play No ma'am no misses I'm a man now boy All hits, no misses, in my bag now boy You ain't love me to begin with You're a fan now boy What's the mission In ignition what you sayin my boy Gonna rearrange the world up in my hand now boy But before we get to cooking, grease the pan my boy And if the oil dun pop stan ya ground my boy I know they wanna see you flop thats not the plan my boy Yelling out Dear Diary Oh what an irony, How can I be less insincere? Yelling out Dear Diary Feed me a line right now wanna feel like I got no fear Yelling out Dear Diary Its so cold in this furnace London bridge keeps burning To whom it may concern, I'm so alone I've been living in my friends mums basement tryna get by Tryna get high Its so cold in this furnace London bridge keeps burning To whom it may concern, I'm so alone Its the Rapscallion, Capricorn stellium Little bit in loving with myself Repress all my emotion keep it stack on top of shelf Still gotta use astrology to try and figure out myself It feels like every line i write is hanging in the balance I bleed on every single page and monetize my talents It is the ballad of the brave I feel socially estranged While my friends are doing college I might write a hook today And it counts man I'm putting all the work in Breaks through the day because i do deserve it Man im pretty close even though nobody is perfect Wanna be famous Even though ill hate it Make straight hits like I'm prince in the 80's Wanna be shameless Beautifully jaded Wanna get the scuffs off my nike air trainers Everybody's rooting for me, so anticipated Will or won't I make it? Whats it mean to make it? Mum said i should fake it until I do And that's exactly what I'm gonna do We have come too far to go home Even when your heart feels so low We have come too far to go home Its so cold in this furnace