Peace of Mind

If you would be so kind to let me speak my mind I would appreciate it 'cause I need to free my mind And leave behind the pain I keep inside I need to seek and find some sort of peace of mind Even when I'm feelin' good I know it may not last long Just to smile, I have to put a mask on A broken heart but there's no way to put a cast on My life is like a rocket ship; I need to blast off Not to say I haven't reached a couple goals I just wish my heart didn't have so many holes They say there's no place I can't go But I have learned that certain rainbows have no pot of gold Never forgettin' holdin' Lena for the first time I wonder what's goin' on up in her mind Does she know that we're dedicating our lives To makin' sure her time on this earth will be worthwhile? I hope I'm ready for all my responsibilities Eventually there's more to life than makin' killin' beats Mom had bigger things in mind when she whipped me by that willow tree I used to be worry free; now that isn't me Reality is somethin' I have trouble holdin' on to Maybe it's 'cause I have nobody that I can talk to Maybe it's 'cause there's no category I belong to Maybe it's 'cause I go through the motions like a walkthrough And I look different in the eyes of other people Life is a haystack; I guess I'm just a needle Life's a big puzzle, I guess I'm just one of the pieces I guess I'll just end up a P.E. teacher It just feels like I'm reachin' for so much more I know I've touched a few lives; I wanna touch more I'm hard on myself, and I don't know what for I'm at the front porch, I'll get to the front door Lately I've just been livin' in a big fog Managin' my issues tends to be a big job Feels like I'm dyin' from all the stress in my nog But the good die young; guess I'll live long If you would be so kind to let me speak my mind I would appreciate it 'cause I need to free my mind And leave behind the pain I keep inside I need to seek and find some sort of peace of mind Wish there was a way for us to rewind time Because I've seen so much it makes me feel so blind Even though I'm yet to ever see the sign It's up to me to find peace of mind Met this girl, out of ten's an eleven Some of the girls on this campus look like they're straight outta heaven I know that sounds desperate; but I never let 'em Get my attention away from the various places I'm headed I gotta stay focused and keep my eyes on the prize My confidence is higher than some kites in the skies But realistically I don't know if I can survive The life I wanna pursue if it's what I decide Time is not the only thing you have to invest To make it for real, and actually have some success It takes a lot of money so I'm savin' my checks And all of these setbacks just make me depressed But at this point, I've gone too far to stop now And time's tickin' with the hands on the clock now I sit around and think about albums to drop now In college, but I really wanna drop out It's been a hot summer, now it's finally coolin' down Leaves are turnin' brown and startin' to fall to the ground There's a cool breeze with the air that surrounds I used to leave my jacket hangin' but I'm wearin' it now Midterm grades are comin' out in a minute I'll show 'em to ya even though it's none of your business They're all lookin' fine, not one of 'em isn't Because I came to this institution intendin' to get it The biggest thing I worry about would probably be the student loans I worry about 'em more than findin' cars and choosin' homes It makes me feel like I'm so trapped; there's no room to grow When it comes to stress, money puts me through the most So I'm just tryin' to live my life in the cheapest way Don't get it twisted, I still tip and let 'em keep the change And keep my confidence the way I keep my grades: up That's my GPA If you would be so kind to let me speak my mind I would appreciate it 'cause I need to free my mind And leave behind the pain I keep inside I need to seek and find some sort of peace of mind Wish there was a way for us to rewind time Because I've seen so much it makes me feel so blind Even though I'm yet to ever see the sign It's up to me to find peace of mind