Moment of Clarity (feat. Arielle)

This may be the end of a dark path But it's only the beginning of my journey I just came from a place where it felt everyday's hard It just would put me under the radar I got so many skeletons in the closet To be honest, there were enough to fill a graveyard Succumbed to shit that I was able to once avoid And you can hear it through the pain in the rugged voice I've been low down and forced to struggle Never respected, just tossed and tussled I'm not 2Pac but it was me against the world My mind was losing it, putting me up in a swirl Anger aiming everywhere, amped with this energy But it turns out that I was my biggest enemy Went to places that you don't wanna go to Trust me, it's best not to show you I was going stupid, being so reclusive That I needed time to realize that I got no excuses So look, the thing is I ain't crying now But no one was there for me when I was down So I've realized these so called homies are crappy friends And more plastic than Khloe Kardashian But my man Mike told me that I got one life And don't spend it dwelling, have time used up right Based on where I was, he'd been there before And was like a big bro to me the way he shared his thoughts This is my therapy, music over alcohol Burned down bridges that were bound to fall Basically, I was a dreaded mess, yeah And I needed a breath of fresh air Real talk, nahmean I've crumbled from the inside out All my walls are falling down But I will be the last one standing I know I've made a few mistakes Broken things I can't replace That's just made me, who I am today This is my moment of clarity Alright Women have always been a big part of my life Since the start of my life, fill up the heart of my life 'Cause without them it's just a vacant hole That makes it cold, so frail and breakable That's why when I saw you, I thought you could fill it Together as a relationship we would build it And the reason why you is 'cause you were so nice to me While I tried to keep feelings on the low, quietly I felt you can tell I liked you after a little bit Tampering this fantasy the way that I would picture it By the way you alienated me out the space You could be right in front me but felt like a mile away Soon I found out that you were into someone else Thought I drove you away, so I would beat up myself Convinced that I was the reason why you were distanced How I approached, my awkward talk, just don't suit ya interests Plus the way that you didn't like to conversate with me And the cringe inside were signs that ya just hated me Problem is that it's easier said than done to move on With my mind constantly thinking 'bout what I'd do wrong So this here is my form of apology For any emotional harm with all of my honesty Soured relationships, each time that's what I ever did Doing all of this just to fucking impress a chick Now I think it's better after some time While the thought of "what if" still in the back of my mind But I guess I can find out if we cool in the near future But I hope this message can get out here to ya This is more than just about me This ain't for everybody I just needed that moment of clarity I've crumbled from the inside out All my walls are falling down But I will be the last one standing I know I've made a few mistakes Broken things I can't replace That's just made me, who I am today This is my moment of clarity OoooOoo The moment of clarity OooOo I don't wanna run away From the life I've made I just wanna change my ways All I feel is shame I've done some things I can't take back The memories are all I have In the end I'm scared I'll be the same I've crumbled from the inside out All my walls are falling down But I will be the last one standing I know I've made a few mistakes Broken things I can't replace That's just made me, who I am today This is my moment of clarity