Agony

No one was there So my demons began to consume me Now they’re everywhere But I’m fighting so they won’t define me I’m starting to realize this is one I can’t win Do you know what it feels like It’s like burning alive in your own skin You can’t count on anyone for anything Only to be let down, and it’s killing me It's killing me I’ve tried so hard, too hard, to be decent person But that’s getting tougher by the second Why should I give, never to get Just take advantage of me Take advantage of me My mind is fractured I’m not whole anymore I’m fucking broken, imperfect, of this, I’m sure Too many issues to ever resolve them all Everyone around me just continues to watch me fall I’ll never be able to catch myself Just continuing to call out. No one will help Are you all blind? Oblivious to my suffering Maybe you’ll finally see me as I’m hanging from the ceiling Neck snapped, body twitching. What site to see It should’ve been you, but it was me Leave me fucking be. No, I’m not the same. Mentally insane. Give me endless peace Give me endless peace Don’t let them find me. Put my mind at ease. You owe me this, at least. I need to be free I need to be free Leave me fucking be Why is it so damn difficult No, I’m not the same You’ve allowed yourself to see me day in and day out, always searching for a way out Put my mind at ease Why won’t you do it? Why can’t you do it? Fucking do it I need to be free No more obligation from anyone to tolerate my presence Let me go Damn. I’ve reached the darkest place I could ever imagine I’ve seen dark before, but this shit is far too much to even fathom Trying to stay afloat, but bound weight tied to my legs You can only fight for air for so long until the water fills your lungs Resentment fills my heart. My eyes only see red I think it’s time I listened to the voices in my fucking head The only salvation you'll ever see is the rope anchoring your throat to the ceiling The only salvation I’ll ever see is the rope anchoring my throat to the ceiling