Dying Love

Dying love I'm tryna make it last Life passing fast Gotta grip the past Look back in pain So much to gain but not a single win Broken soul but ill sing again I'll sing again Don't die today I got more to say I'm so mortified I've seen homicide I've seen mothers cry Because a mother cries on the other side no switching sides She can feel the pain Dont wanna feel the pain Live to die I kinda feel the same Don't tell me why cause I don't understand Don't trust a man no shaking hands Got bloody hands Tell Kristal I'm so stressed I still think about our sex I keep hoping something better come my way I'm always late I'm right here but I can't even feel my feelings I'm emotionally willing but ain't shit left here to give I know loving me aint easy See my life and what you see I'm so broken I believe that death is close I see ghosts We're all just living just to cry Full of pain and then you die But I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive I can't concentrate I'm willing I keep losing focus really I'm just tryna make a million From a drug addicted feelin Bitch I'm shooting for the stars Tell ell me how far they are really I reach out and touch the sky Ask myself like all the time if were living just to die Than what's the point Tell me who you love Tell me why you love Tell me everything about you Are you lying love That shit just ain't what it seem I am dying love I don't understand the point I can fix it all with drugs I could lose it all in moments time is way more than components Tell me how the fuck I know this I've been lower than the lowest Ain't no love when you in hell Looking back and well I wish you well Gotta make it right this time I've failed so many times I know life ain't mine I know life gets ripped apart like fuck em all I need my heart Ain't no living life without you I reminisce all the time You left remenants in my mind I keep seeing you I'm blind I know the futures undefined Even if the stars aligned and somehow it all intertwined And you somehow are by my side It still ain't right because I see you in my mind Please don't let me fall away Tell me how you ever loved me Tell me how we let our love become so ugly I'm so sorry I don't know I guess time will show We was never meant to be and thats okay with me I'm just glad I felt your love just know it stays with me I hope you pray for me because I pray for you I pray for you I pray you doing everything you ever wanted life can be so haunting But I got to tell you something Your all I ever wanted Your all I've ever wanted Feel my pain just feel my pain Look out these dirty eyes I don't understand my cry's for love and no one near replys For love i'll kill a man no lies I look deep into the skies and I can't help but visualize A perfect world with no demise I've searched the world to no surprise Came up empty I've realized That only I can beat the odds Life ain't really what it seems when you can feel what people feeling Is this life we live for real or we just passing through the streams What if God can't really see What if we are all that exists What if we are all that is defined What if I love so hard that I let it control my mind I been hurt but I'm the culprit A vine grows where no sun flows In search of the light Up and maybe it might Reach a point where he is enlightened Where it stops searching and just uses the air to brighten But no matter the fight in It will one day wither away with no understanding of Death or life or love or hate or her Or will we