Honestly

Sorry I've been so out of touch I know it's been a couple months Been busy with a lot of stuff that I really can't explain So let's small talk about nothing much I'll make up some utopia just for you Anything to cover up the smoke and mirrors game Cause I care what you think when you look at me I love the prestige, that small luxury I'll do what I need to make you believe The person you see is truly happy So Every day I'll say I'm fine, picture-perfect Even if it's all a lie you'll fall for it cause I'm pretty good at getting by under the pressure I do it damn near all the time, it's second nature But if you looked on the inside you'd see I'm hurting I feel the pain now all the time, this isn't working So I compartmentalize to keep it together But all I got are pretty lies that look good on paper Honestly, honestly Honestly, can't you see I wish that I could open up and Tell you what I'm thinking of just for once but It's so much easier said than done I never follow through No, I never follow through Cause I care what you think when you look at me I love the prestige, that small luxury Talking honestly, I'm scared that you'll leave When you finally see I'm not what I seem So Every day I'll say I'm fine, picture-perfect Even if it's all a lie you'll fall for it cause I'm pretty good at getting by under the pressure I do it damn near all the time, it's second nature But if you looked on the inside you'd see I'm hurting I feel the pain now all the time, this isn't working So I compartmentalize to keep it together But all I got are pretty lies that look good on paper Honestly, honestly Honestly, can't you see Honestly, honestly Honestly, can't you see Maybe one day I'll let you in Maybe I'll find the confidence just for you And on that day I won't pretend I will finally be all of me Honestly