Broken Promises

When I'm laying in my bed or going though the motions I'm haunted by a ghost, drained of these emotions I'm sitting on a beach, staring at the ocean I think about your face god damn I'm broken Only way I know to numb it is to take a toke in I'm sorry that I left you, Im sorry that I chose this Baby I still love you, believe I'll never quit Always on my mind you my reason to live Cry me Rivera, an I'll be there to mop it up I'll drop what I'm doin, An I'll be there for you Regardless if you harness on this fondness You're the only the angel left in my darkness Things fell apart, I'm guilty on my conscience It's been way too long, I think I broke my promise It's been way too long, I think I broke my promise I wrote my song to you I gave you the key first Now my hearts been overworked Ripped apart and shoved in dirt I'm drowning in the wishing well My last breath I wish you well Please tell me that you'll reach out And help me outta my hell Just offer my apology in hope that you acknowledge it That I made some bad choices as an alcoholic Worst one I ever made was gettin up and leaving you I hope that yah pops well, Yah mah an yah sis too Depressed all day writing lyrics getting faded We had that certain thing I was certain we would make it The way I held you in my arms dancing at prom Shit, It's not fair of me to air this through a song The end of the day I took the time to write my feelings At the end of the year I'll still be here spitting lyrics Know you're on my mind every night that I sleep The only one I dream about is you Ashleigh When I was in jail man it hit me real hard To never see her face again, not even from afar The fuck was I thinking driving drunk in my car She the only thing I care about an I was being barred Four years sober and I'd throw it all away for you I'd pack up all my shit an jump on a plane for you I've changed as a human but I know it doesn't matter You see me as the piece of shit that cause this disaster Can't turn back time, if I could I'd hit reverse Just to see yah eyes, I just wanna converse Ask how you're doing, are you doing alright Are you still pursuing what you want in life I've gone through relationships They've been fucking hell I've gone through some real shit I've put up my shell I swallow my mistakes Never should've blocked you out I never should've gave up I should've stayed an stuck it out Swear to the god if there is one I'm not reminiscing I'm just missing on you I'm not asking for forgiveness I'm just asking for an inch I know it can't be easy When I'm asking for this Ain't no pity party, pretty please don't pity on me I just had to say it, and put it out in the world In case I die tomorrow then you know I was real Take it to yah grave with the way you know I feel I created this song for you, I started from scratch I pulled it from my heart, then I put it on the track Time goes by I see that My feelings for you so gone high in the clouds Baby girl you make me proud From the time that I seen you To the time that I felt you Breaking down my walls I tell you that I like you I tell you that you great When it comes to a fire Baby you a blue flame You the string to my kite And The peddle to my bike You the sun to my moon The light to my night Depressed all day writing lyrics getting faded We had that certain thing I was certain we would make it The way I held you in my arms dancing at prom Shit, It's not fair of me to air this through a song The end of the day I took the time to write my feelings At the end of the year I'll still be here spitting lyrics Know you're on my mind every night that I sleep The only one I dream about is you Ashleigh Hear that last verse, that's the poem I wrote for yah Back in tenth grade and it came from my memory