Undecided

Every, thing that I'm doing, got me thinking of newer All the weight that I'm moving has got me making excuses I'm not, talking on drugs I'm just talking 'bout being human When you, feel like you blooming but you don't see no improving I got, millions of ruined cells in my body from boozing and fuckin wasting the brews 'til I can't Keep myself cool And collected, lecture me later, I feel like an elevator, every time that I made to the top I fell down and wasted It's not, my own creation, I tell myself when I'm hating myself But I'm so jaded I know I just have to face it I got, no fuckin reason to be just sitting here thinking bout life The fuck is even going on inside my cranium Like, this whole existence to me seems a little alien Maybe it's the cries of all the people who were failing me I ain't got a theory as to why they all be blaming me Maybe cause they angry I climbed out of it prevailingly I, don't fuckin know but I don't give a shit neither I got no motherfuckin time for any bitch of a teacher Who gon' tell me I'm gonna grow up and I'm never gon' be shit Cause I think motherfuckin differently from bullshit you feeding Me but hey, it's said and done now Guess I'm still grieving all the losses of all the evil dudes I thought were my people I'm writing down every bar so all of y'all hear me speaking I'm so eager to fuckin beat somebody down cause y'all keepin' On fuckin pissing me off, everything y'all do is excrement I'm just tryna dodge y'all bitches while I'm chasing excellence But fuck it man, I guess it done got lost somewhere in transit Theres a chance it's under my motherfuckin mattress Lately I been feeling like a case of fuckin baskets, seems like I'm a bullshit magnet, man it's Fuckin tiring, got me riding on the side of a whole pride of fuckin lions Thinking dying might just be a fuckin option now Man it's been so long that I've almost fuckin forgotten how to stay just fuckin strong enough So I don't end up falling down If I ever see you fuckin bitches I'ma knock you out I ain't even talking 'bout nobody in specific I got tons of motherfuckers in a line all on my shit list Just a fuckin misfit with a dream of doing big shit I ain't fuckin quittin' til I'm eating like a picnic, never gonna wonder why the fuck I even exist All you fuckin pissed bitches watch me while I'm done with you I don't give a damn about you now so fuck is up with you? Time to go away and find some shit that's motherfuckin new I'm so tired of both of all your ugly ass faces Got me fuckin angry but anger is such a waste And I can't motherfuckin wait for the day that y'all ain't gon' say shit So I'm fuckin making that paper on daily basis 'Cause ain't nothing gonna make me go bankrupt ever again Ain't shit that I never said, I been fuckin backpedaled Treaded on by the dead fuckin men that I once considered as friends Whatever, said it again, I don't give a damn about anyone tryna get to my ends You can meet the end of my hand My knuckles headed for crest of your jaw so better defend It ain't gon' matter by then because that'll settle the debt Hope I ain't 'rrested again though it'd be a lesser offense Like the one that I used to hop to ditch class I never attend Though I'm learning a fuckin lot, that's why I'm never gon' stop Cause I fuckin end up on top when I try to get to the spot I'm fuckin taking my losses and tryna scrape what I got It's fuckin breaking my heart to see all the pain that I brought But fuck it, so many crossed me so fuck every fuckin body I'll do it all on my lonesome although my thoughts getting cloudy Fuckin vision is foggy, tired of acting so cocky, you can just go on without me Don't give a fuck about you so please don't give one about me