Damages

Yeah Yeah Uh huh Well alright Bring it back One more time, one more time, one more time Uh huh Uh yeah yeah Uh huh Feel it? Uh I couldn't focus in class I was thinking about making this cash I was living too fast Got so used to moving on from the past, that I never could accept where I'm at Dead homies taught me life doesn't last Mom taught me you don't know til you ask So, don't ask what is under the mask You couldn't handle it I'm not even used to all my damages Wish I could've learned early what damage is and managed it Now, I'm in this cold world Trynna turn my old girl back to ol' girl She gone have to take my word for it Now, the streets is talking and she heard bout it Told her not to worry about it Why you let 'em faze you? They don't care about you She say that they shouldn't have a reason to gossip I'm the one who started this but can't do nothing to stop it So, instead of owning up to the problem I dug a deeper hole until I ended up at the bottom Now, she yelling out "niggas ain't shit", and "every man trash" Talking bout how she don't need a man to go and get a bag There was once upon a time that she was proud to be my girl Now, she don't trust anybody. It's just her against the world I did some damage Loved you more than I loved myself, and I said fuck your feelings That's when I proved to myself I ain't give a fuck bout living Death was knocking at my door, I almost let him in But on the way to the door I tripped on these pills again So fuck it, call up my niggas, tonight we smoking on venom And we downing that jack unless y'all want something expensive This random calling my phone I told her I'm not in the mood She always bringing her friends, and they got a bad attitude I be out of my mind. I don't know how I be functioning If I'm hitting your line at this time, I want more than company These girls looking for love, well you ain't gone find it with me I told you that from the jump so don't act surprised when I leave I feel my heart getting harder. The doctor think I need therapy I nod and I smile, but I know ain't nobody helping me Man, my damage is deep, I may not ever recover Misery is contagious, I passed it on to my lover And now we both finna struggle Now, we both finna suffer We both making it worse by trynna get back at each other And we don't care if it's healthy, we just know that we hurting But if one thing's for certain it's that this shit isn't working Girl, we should stop playing games Fuck whatever they saying Let's just go back to you and me, what we had was amazing They only wanted us broken because they wanted a piece I guess the first step of finding our love is finding our peace Til then, we'll never be free