I Won't Ever Be the Same

So, I'll keep trying to find a way To make sense of this and find resolve But as long as you're happy, I guess I'll be alright You just keep moving forward and don't look back to find me Cuz I'll keep praying, and I'll keep laying my head down at night And dream of the past And the future we're not in together we'll go our own ways I'll go where I have to, and sing what I need to, and tell our story with a different name Cuz I still want to protect you, though I know I don't have to So, go on, live your life, you're safe You're safe with me You're safe without me I won't ever be the same I made my choices Life lessons I've learned the hard way I found joy in danger And made a mess from things I shouldn't say Thoughts leave my head through my mouth And I write it off "it's from the heart" But the heart is wicked, I can't fix it Only the one who's been here from the start I'm so sorry I failed in so many ways And we can't change it I know you're sorry, you tore me apart But you can't fix it So, don't try, don't try, don't try, don't try I'll be alright, alright, alright, alright I won't ever be the same Sometimes life is full of pain I won't ever be the same Open my eyes to see what we've gained I won't ever be the same So, change my heart and heal the shame I won't ever be the same There is beauty in this pain I won't ever be the same It's so terrible and amazing This masterpiece Of misplaced intentions And emotions