Missing Person

Sometimes I be thinking it's a crazy world ain't it Looking in the mirror, I see a picture that I painted Talking to myself like yeah I'm the greatest Until that pressure come, then I feel like I'm the hated Happens very often it's an everyday basis I can't stand my look, damn I feel like I'm a racist I have more around when I'm off in different places But yet I'm so alone no matter how many faces People ignoring me, so yeah I'm getting stressed So yeah I'm moving backwards and I'm talking my ex Every-time I do I feel like God threw me a test Every-time I fail I feel like God won't let rest I can see on my face I haven't gotten any sleep I can see it on my body haven't lifted in a week I can hear it my stomach that I really needa eat I can see that I'm tired, and it's effort that I bleed Every single day I get more and more fed up I'm looking for cash and I'm tryna get my bread up But I focus on the wrong n I don't wanna let up Now I pay the price and my heads all fucked up Please forgive me I'm just going the most Between my family, bills, my car note and my gross Believe when I say I'm doing my utmost But then people need me when I'm working on my own Now you wanna talk but I don't really wanna sit (No) Hold me down tighter than a fucking double knit (No) Don't waste my time unless I'm gonna fucking benefit (Yes) Now you might see me as a fucking hypocrite (Yes) Look me in the eyes, I don't really a shit (No) I don't give a fuck about your mans or your click (No) I wanna figure how the fuck I'm getting rich (Yes) Cause talking to you is killing me every minute (Yes) Yeah I got a problem and it's hard to admit Hard to keep composure when I always reminisce Yeah I can make a hit, yeah I can make a check But non of that matters when I'm always upset I need a conversation I can feel my problems worsen They prolly think I'm desperate, trust me cause I'm almost certain I'm asking for a response it's not like I'm speaking german I'm looking for attention and I feel like I'm a burden My growth isn't constant, relapse it can happen I wanna blame others but I realize I'm the captain Steering my own ship, no one else is in control I'm yelling at the mirror, you must change as a whole I'm always worried about a girl who doesn't give a shit Thinking one day maybe she'll hear my hits But it doesn't really matter what I really wanna do She will always see me from a different point of view Goddamn I miss my brother I love it when we chat So I can talk my shit I always wonder where he at I got my little sister, now she think she grown But she has no idea how it feels to be alone I see what she wants but things take time I know she wants to run but she should walk before she flies My family got some issues but I keep that on the low If I had gun I would take that shit and blow People think I'm fine but I'm really not ok I know its not a bad life it's just a bad day All of my problems just make my blood hurt It's endless pain for me it's moves like clock work I don't think that I can lie I expect too much from people To always give a shit I always see myself as equal I feel like people think I should be a better version That's always on my mind I should be a missing person