Sm;le

I'm alive Have you ever felt the need to look yourself right in the eyes And cry beg yourself to stay alive I have Have you ever been so low you felt like you didn't know If you were already dead or in your bed asleep for days woah I have never been the type to fake my smile fake my pride I have always been the realest one getting pushed aside I have tried to fit in didn't work for me so now I hide In my raps and rhymes like I'm a metaphor come to life Yeah and people say they want me to be nice But happiness is something that you feel inside You expect me to be grateful look around this race is hateful Why should I pretend I'm not an actor in your fable no Woah let me be myself yo Let me spit my truth yeah Let me build my wealth I'm not asking you for help no So don't offer it this shit is my offerin' If I do not make it out then put this on my coffin yeah I survived suicide I survived I survived I survived suicide I'm alive yeah I survived suicide I survived I survived I survived suicide I'm alive I'm alive I remember that night like it was just yesterday My wife had just left me I felt like she got the best of me It was all my fault that's what she said to me Then the voices crept in and said you're better off dead to me I took all those pills in hopes I'd die in silence non violent Women tend to not want a mess left after dying But they were lying I'm a diamond made from all the pressure in my life It has always been kinda dark inside Everyone livin' here livin' in sin People hate each other cause they're livin' just to win Yeah this anger gets to me I wish I felt differently But honestly this pain has made me into what I need to be A beast now I'm doing me I'm not afraid to feel all these things I'm not afraid to speak You do not know what goes through my head And I'll live it up until I'm dead My purpose has been found I'm here to write this shit down and spit it out so Turn the music up so loud that they can't hear you scream Never doubt yourself never doubt your dreams I believe in you and if you can relate then let us have a play date with our demons Turn this shit up and scream it out loud cuz this is why I'm breathin' yeah I survived suicide I survived I survived I survived suicide I'm alive yeah I survived suicide I survived I survived I survived suicide I'm alive yeah I survived suicide I survived I survived I feel like I'm dead inside but I'm alive