Growing Pains / My Father's Reflection

No one is available to answer your call, please leave your message after the tone Hey Grandpa, It's Me Maka. I love you so much and I miss you more and more everyday I wish you were here Amen I love you Grandpa I love you Grandma It's like sometimes I get this weird feeling And it's like I can feel you here with me. While I'm staring at this blank canvas Thinking to myself like damn I got to leave Kansas Last year I wanted to be the hottest on the campus Same year my grandpa died of his cancer I wish I could have visit I'm sorry I missed it I can't believe a sickness it let you diminish When I see your picture I get mixed feelings It's like your still here and I can still feel you People they only love you when its beneficial Only when you up they want to deal with you But when you at your lowest will they still feel you It's hard to find the ones to keep it real with you It's hard to keep my composure Twas the toughest october My cousin' nem trying to treat me like I'm the one getting over And he knows I still love him Got to act like I don't know him Cause i'm still gone be the same wether I'm high or I'm Sober Why you aint call me When you salty Even when its groggy I'm still in Arms Reach Cause I never been faulty I've been all me I'm solid as the concrete Not a copy Do you got me I should never have to question who got me Why they making me feel like I got to question who got me Wrote this for my baby Nova thats my only child They ask me what keeps me going I say its her smile Know her mama campaige she gone hold me down I got lost on the way but im focused now I did this for my mama with her big heart I hope they never ever tear you and your son apart I hope that one day we can all have a fresh start But until that day just like my pops I got to grind hard Remember when you fall its how you get up Thats what Deuce told me in there doing sit ups For all my family locked down I send you big ups Keep your chest poked out and your chin up I had to put the past behind me So when you see me doing good dont remind me Cause I always knew who I'll be I'm that Rose, that bloomed from the concrete