Fly Away Breakthrough

Pain all in my veins Pain all in my veins Why it gotta be so hard Why it gotta be so hard Why it gotta be so hard Why it gotta be so hard I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away Somewhere far away Somewhere far away Somewhere far away Somewhere far away The devil tryna hold me back I can't handle these attacks 100 scars on my back That's a fact I just wanna fly away I just wanna fly away Somewhere far away Somewhere far away Reminisce Reminisce Bad thoughts in my mind Contemplating bout suicid Cuz man this life get hard But I aint ready for a suit and tie Lately I been in my bag In my feelings feeling sad Dibble dabbing in the past Add it up and do the math Cuz Sunday morning I'm praising Monday night I'm swaying Tuesday come I'm changing Watching videos X-Rated Ever since I was eight man Life never been the same man I cant deal with guilt I just wanna hurt myself wanna hurt myself wanna hurt myself Put the match to my body wanna burn myself I just wanna disappear make it clear to a new year cuz I feel like I cursed myself God I ain't tryna be funny I don't even know why you love me This getting sick to my stomach I'm on my bending knee Lord help me please All my shame and all my guilt Lord this is killing me Bury this addiction please before it bury me There's a small voice in my head telling me I am free Its hard to believe that I'm free I don't believe that I'm free Then why would you die for me If you know inside of me would turn away from your decrees I cant no I cant believe it That you want me back in Eden My heart is playing the defense It is so hard to receive it because I'm scared, of what it may cost me Of getting that phone call at two in the morning Crying that somebody died Can't you tell by the look on my eyes That I'm scared Scared to give it my all I know the ending to this story I seen this before Cuz every time I'm in the summer next season I fall aww man I'm scared, scared to live scared to die scared to move scared to lose Scared to lose it all for my faith Weaker than dry bones my faith it might break Giving myself away, how much you want me to take Scared to give up pornography Scared that I might feel empty inside of me This is all I know this is all I know to feel good Naked women the images making me feel good But not for long, cuz while I'm thinking bout a woman taking off her bra My girl dreaming that I'm cheating now she insecure She's buying lies for the low How we gonna make it right if I keep lying on the low I'm afraid that you gon tell me now it's time to let it go let it go let it go I'm scared, Im scared Only 22 and I live on my own now It's been two years and I'm feeling alone now Cooped up in this room got me missing my home now I just wanna throw skates on and roll bounce Midnight's anxiety knock on the door on my mind Lost some people now I'm anxious that it's close to my time If I had one wish I would I could fly From all of this pain and all of this doubt and all of my hurt and all of my wrongs I surrender Lord I surrender Lord I surrender Lord And the Lord replies And the Lord replies Wait Don't forget what I done for you When you was still a sinner I gave up my only Son for you Hung on the cross for you Pierced lungs covered the blood on you Wait Now you just gotta live it Leave the mistakes behind you I meant it when it was finished So when they see you now and asking how you living You tell them I'm on a breakthrough I'm on a breakthrough I'm on a breakthrough I'm on a breakthrough I'm on a breakthrough I'm on a breakthrough I'm on a breakthrough