I'm Prayin'

I'm prayin' that I'll have a purpose in this life All this pain has to lead to something good right I'm not like all the other kids I dropped out cause i'm focused That's just how it is I always pave my own way We only live once so I ain't throwing this away Anxiety's got the best of me My minds always racing like I'm pazzin' on some weed I always have this empty feeling It's like I'm dreaming hang the rope around the ceiling Feeling like I don't belong here Feeling like I'm living in a deep pit of fear Feeling like my heart's been stuck I need another beer to clear All the fucked thoughts that I fear I don't care about the money man I wanna find peace within now that's the real plan My mixed emotions are confusing me My brains running on auto But I'm not free I'm lonely as can be Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me My mixed emotions are confusing me My brains running on auto But I'm not free I'm lonely as can be Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me I'm always feeling so drained I don't wanna do a thing I can't take this pain I can't stand to see another day I wanna go to sleep and slowly drift away I'm always dreaming bout my old life I took that shit for granted now I sing on this mic To escape all my demons I wanna find happiness where could it be huh I wonder if I'll suffer all my life My visions got me tripping out but I can still write Write all about my feelings There hard to manage Everyday I'm slowly healing My new outlook got me spinning out My new outlook is rare better watch out I'm trying to move to the next step I'm trying to follow my dreams through this headset My mixed emotions are confusing me My brains running on auto But I'm not free I'm lonely as can be Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me My mixed emotions are confusing me My brains running on auto But I'm not free I'm lonely as can be Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me I'm trying to be the best that I can be Even though I'm lost with no place I have to be G Can't find the energy to function Procrastinating cause I find nothing fun and I'm still drifting off in the day My minds running from danger but there's none ay I guess this is the story of my life No one understands how much that I have to fight To get through the day and night Waking up in cold sweats Welcome to my life huh I'm eating heaps cause I can't smoke I'm gaining weight cause it's like I can't fucking cope With all these challenges in my life I wish I was happy But I'm not gonna lie My souls darker than I can explain Serotonin running low my life is insane My mixed emotions are confusing me My brains running on auto But I'm not free I'm lonely as can be Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me My mixed emotions are confusing me My brains running on auto But I'm not free I'm lonely as can be Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me