Negative Energy

I've always felt like a beast resurrected I flipped my lid when my teacher said I was dyslexic Non stop eating tryna fight high metabolism Then my doctor tried to say I'm fucking anorexic I block my pain out subliminally affected I'm just an individual I've always been rejected And when I finally found somebody that loved me that's when I done the dirty like my fucking ex did I've been writing down lyrics from the age of nine You played your childhood well fucking olders played with mine I'm not getting gassed talking like I sprayed a nine But feds knew my name and always used to waste my time They told me one day were gonna give you major time I knew I'd prove em wrong I've got away with rhymes I'm on the move you can hate while you stay behind I never talk names but they're too keen to slater mine The fucking jealousy how did it get ahead of me I was tryna build a legacy that's something that I'll never see The worst felony sleeping with the enemy The music and the melody was telling me to never cheat Now I'm reminiscing lighting up this remedy It's lemony it's cheddar sweet I'm tired but not getting sleep My soul's gold but I feel like it's dead in me Negative energy overflowing Hennesy I find it difficult battling depression I remember back in school I be panicking in lesson The anxiety hating on society I've always had a big problem tackling aggression They think I'm calm cuz I'm wrapping up the lemon But I'm the type of guy that will attack him with a weapon You like chemistry mix hate and jealousy That's why I'm feeling like I haven't been progressing I felt like I was balling I was drawing out the dirty cash On road with thirty lads and thirsty gash my murky past I was only thirteen you was getting gassed from Burberry hats and dirty slags I was still improving from my early tracks I tell em on a level my brain will never settle I put fire on the beat just like I manufacture metal Give me the beat give me the bass give me the strings and the treble I just wanna live my life I don't want a fucking Medal The fucking jealousy how did it get ahead of me I was tryna build a legacy that's something that I'll never see The worst felony sleeping with the enemy The music and the melody was telling me to never cheat Now I'm reminiscing lighting up this remedy It's lemony it's cheddar sweet I'm tired but not getting sleep My soul's gold but I feel like it's dead in me Negative energy overflowing Hennesy Now It's looking like this music is a game to them They ain't ready but they're out there chasing fame again I talk my life take a listen feel the pain again I'm writing so hard that I pierce my pad and break the pen I was loyal backing fighting in my mates defence If there was any trouble I was switching waving blades for them That's stupidity riding for a faker friend I'm moving anti I'm not making same mistakes again I fell into a day dream now everyone is killing it I was over thinking getting paranoid of pyramids I'm open minded even when I was little kid But I'm rebellious I try not to give a shit I'll make your head spin like the liquor did If you can't handle it how you meant to trigger it Try be me you couldn't even picture it I maintained the pain made a change then configured it The fucking jealousy how did it get ahead of me I was tryna build a legacy that's something that I'll never see The worst felony sleeping with the enemy The music and the melody was telling me to never cheat Now I'm reminiscing lighting up this remedy It's lemony it's cheddar sweet I'm tired but not getting sleep My soul's gold but I feel like it's dead in me Negative energy overflowing Hennesy