Reflections (feat. Molly Jenson)

Take a couple of pills just to fade out I don't wanna be around no more Everybody was telling me that it's my fault If that's the case than what am I even here for Maybe it'd be better if I was gone Maybe nobody would even notice Or maybe I am just a product of Everybody around me that Told me I'd never get through this But what if they lied to me What if I'm not all alone What if the reason I'm breathing Is cause I am more than feelings I own Homie this is real life Ain't a act for the cameras Devil in my head tryna take my life And then make me believe that it's glamorous So who do you think that you are Telling me I am to blame I'm tired of walking around with my head hanging low tryna constantly bottle the shame I'm trying to change I need your compassion right now I don't need you giving me grief Just because I handle hardship a little bit Different don't mean that I'm weak I didn't choose this place But I ain't gonna run away I'm gonna stand right here And show you, who I am Yeah, I struggle with depression That ain't nothing to be ashamed of Sometimes it's hard And I just feel so lonely, unworthy and honestly unloved It's more than just feeling sad It's more than just being mad It's not like I wake up and choose that I wanna be stuck in this relapse I try to be positive, telling myself that today will be different But sometimes I can't, so I crawl in my bed with the Lights off and block out the world that I'm missing Don't tell me that this is just all in my head Cause I swear on my life if you say that again I might fly off the handle and say something stupid Don't act like you know where I been I'm tired of playing pretend I'm done with the make believe From now on I am who I am, I'm not scared Of just wearing my heart on my sleeve I don't need approval from you My life isn't up for debate I wasted too much of my life tryna prove I was loved But I'm done with the hate I'm done with the hate I didn't choose this place But I ain't gonna run away I'm gonna stand right here And show you, who I am Sometimes I can't even look at myself Cause I hate who I see in the mirror My reflection is nothing but all the regrets And a life paralyzed by the fear On the other hand sometimes I love What I see, so I use it to grow and evolve Hoping that one day the fake it to make it Will turn into honest resolve But what if it don't? What if I come to the end of my rope What if I get to the point where I can't Turn around and I lose any semblence of hope That's when I turn to the sky Praying he gives me the strength to survive Sometimes that's all I can do when I'm Tired and broken, please Father just keep me alive Just keep me alive I didn't choose this place But I ain't gonna run away I'm gonna stand right here And show you, who I am I didn't choose this place But I ain't gonna run away I'm not ashamed to say that This is, who I am