Patricia Ann Reynolds

Oh mama Oh how I love you mama Oh mama Oh how I love you mama Oh how I love you mama Hey mama you inspired this rhythm and blues Like Kanye when I was young received some bad news You passed away while I was gone in Texas Didn't hit me until the next day during breakfast Cause there was no hot cooked meal I stared in disbelief my bowl of cold cereal I couldn't believe my mama was really gone The house wasn't the same so we uprooted our home I moved locations and I moved schools My whole life turned upside down, was so confused I didn't care about the answer to 2 plus 2 I just wanted the answer to where was you Everybody always saying oh it must be rough Expected me to move on , assumed I was tough But they had no clue , they had no idea How crazy I went without my madea Growing up I thought nobody on this planet knew How hard it was at night crying & missing you Used to walk around mad & bitter at the world And I Couldn't stay committed with my past girls I couldn't love , and acted like I really didn't care Couldn't come to grips with you not really being here Showed no emotions, had no feelings inside Fuck cancer took my mom when I was barely five No faith in religion, because I blamed the gods Would've cursed them if I wasn't scared of lightning rods Disguised the pain to everybody, acting straight facade Playing happy to my family living like a fraud Never really spoke to anybody how I felt Learned from trial and error , running from the belt Had nobody to seek out during some drama So I said sent another prayer up like hey mama I Still remember how you taught me how to tie my shoes I sat up on your lap & you taught me the little groove You know the one with the rabbit ears, and the twist Man sometimes its still hurts to sit & reminisce But understand mom that you've taught me quite a lot Even though I was 5 mom I never forgot That scripture on my first day of kindergarten I think my next tatt will read gone but not forgotten Or should it be that chapter 22 and 6 scripture Or should it be a mural of me and your only picture And I know it's been a while since I brought you flowers I'm ashamed to admit i've lost track of the hours I've just been focused, tryna get it daily best I can Living right , following the lord's up highs plan Just know i love you mom and please continue to pray When I see you I’ma scream hey mama like Kanye