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Here was a time in my life when i only cared about myself Now I'm able to be of service and give back what was so freely given to me Im grateful for that let me tell you a little bit about my past and the struggles i've faced And by the grace of God was able to make it through Living like a low life not a single fuck to give And i tried envisioning the life i want to live My addiction took control and made me stick in a syringe No one cared about your feeling now its time to fucking binge As im illing in the morning all i wanna do is die Nothing matters to me anymore but let me clarify Self care wasnt a thing i put my morals to the side Man it really is a miracle i made it out alive yeah What the fuck was i thinking i guess i wasnt Cuz the life that i was living was convincing me that anything that Mattered to me only made a difference If i had a pill of dope for me to cope with all my issues I guess I'm stuck in this tent Begging for change to get a fix im stuck at zero percent Im being raped by my addiction i aint give my consent I would give anything to stop this shit from happening again yeah And so i finally go to jail I'm unaware i have a reservation what does that entail Thinking i can drink when i get out and i will still prevail Only thing thats happening im setting myself up to fail yeah When will enough be enough I'm so fed up with all the wreckage i have caused im giving up Theres so much pain inside my soul somebody please just wake me up From this nightmare that ive been living everybody listen up I finally have decided to get my life together Now im flying high like a pilot I didn't do it on my own i had to have proper guidance Now the flame inside my soul has finally been reignited This life i never imagined I'm showing sympathy for others And i have some compassion I'm breathing fire like a Dragon With this pencil and this pad and spreading hope through my experience and helping others Wow man like you know you got a powerful story Zack like its a lot of people out there that you can help A lot of People that you can touch you know sometimes We all would feel like were going through this alone We have Nobody to talk to nobody to turn to but theres always Somebody Everybody has a story heres mine First of all I like to thank you all for coming Man I've been trying to walk this path but lately I've been running My pasts has been trying to catch up fast them demons they been lunging Groping nudging hoping something Opens up that breeds destruction Cuz I've been out my mind ever since my mama died Thinking let a nigga try and it's gonna be a homicide Smoking weed I'm staying high although I'm feeling low inside Lord knows I'm truly traumatized from daunting thoughts I tried to hide Geez this grief runs deeper than the surface No picture perfect life my shit was like a three ring circus So I started getting high placating feelings feeling worthless Lost control of all those urges stolen goods sold to the merchants And it's all to get a hit of crack See it started off as fun but now I'm stuck here feeling trapped Slowly drowning in depression as my kin all turn their backs Shackled pain it pulls me under this abyss just fades to black Now tell me how do I get out of this Mixing dope and bars I'm blacking out like power outages Looking in the mirror asking how could you be proud of this Man find your fucking strength we all fear change so lose the cowardice Cuz that shit's such a silly trait Had to let go of my pride that's the price I had to pay Seen that lighthouse in the distance a six-month extended stay Started kicking that addiction thank the Lord I'm here today Cuz he brought me through the storm I was dead off in deep Waters yes he brought me to the shore Placed his hands upon my chest restored my breath and changed my core Transformed my broken Spirit made me stronger than before And now I'm headed on the right track Indebted to the heavens for the present of my life back Impressive with my fight back Im present and I like that I think thats all my time thanks for listening here's the mic back