Down and Out

Aye, don't put me on no pedestal, don't let up on your brakes I'm honest with you now so it don't blow up in your face I ain't one to look up don't tell no one imitate If you look up you'll see me droppin as I fall from grace I'll only let you down down You down down yeah, I'm down and out I'm gon only let you down down You down down yeah, I'm down and out Look in my eyes see my disgrace See my mistakes sealed my fate See the dried tears that had slid off my face See my back ache as I carry the weight Weight on my shoulders and weight on my mind My visions been cloudy the longest of times Wait on the hour for sun to come shine And break the monotony of my decline Life is not stopping I've ran out of options I'm stuck in this rut and my heart is still droppin Heart is still sinking at least it's still beatin It wasn't for fam I might want it to stop My vices I leap in and then I keep sinking I let em consume until it all pop No longer dreaming the nightmares all eat em I fight for my freedom until chains are unlocked And if they not? Destructive forever I bring stormy weather and lightning strike twice Lost in my thoughts through my endeavors relations I've severed and try as I might Can't make em better I can't make me better I can but it's hard so I fight with my life Try to remember turn back when you entered we only gon end with some trials and strife, try as I might I'm giving in to my vices Meet the real me you won't like him Love to have you as my side kick But that's the first one sacrificed when The hero gets beaten and battered Good hearts are broken and shattered A choice to be made with my actions But will my choices even matter Lay in my tomb of distractions jealousy overreactin Should have done better when had her My music is all gettin sadder Welcome to my pity party late to the shit it's already started And I've got a Molotov in my pocket I walk inside then bang