I'm Not Okay

I started drinking All the pain away Staying up all night Talking to myself I'm a fucking mess Summer doesn't feel the same Nothing really feels the same I just wanna go back I just wanna know that I'll be okay Staring at the mirror Sweat dripping down my face And it's alright Tell myself it's alright I could have it worse but I could be doing a little better At the same time I don't think I'm okay How'd I hit the bottom of a bottle On a Tuesday I don't think I'm okay Think I need to tell someone Or maybe yell it til My lungs go numb I don't think I'm okay I don't think I'm okay No I don't think I'm okay No I don't think I'm okay I'm okay I'm not okay I'm losing track of my days I feel worthless I keep on making mistakes I'm not perfect I swear I'm doing Everything I can but This feels Out of my hands so I started drinking on the day to day Stay up til the sunrise I can't really see straight Feel the blood in my eyes Never known the bright side always had to fight just to stay alive I just wanna know that I'll be okay Staring at the mirror Sweat dripping down my face And it's alright Tell myself it's alright I could have it worse but I could be doing a little better At the same time I don't think I'm okay How'd I hit the bottom of a bottle On a Tuesday I don't think I'm okay Think I need to tell someone Or maybe yell it til My lungs go numb I don't think I'm Everything you wanted and more Grew up on the bus now I got two doors Running everyday But I don't get sore Got points on the board But I don't keep score I don't pray But I made peace With the lord Wanna go to A good place When it's over Right now Pretty much Livin on sofas Drunk by ten Getting fully loaded Gotta get clean Gotta get myself sorted Said it all before Yep duly noted I try But then Mission aborted Never really known what Life's like sober vision like The lenses broken Couldn't handle My emotion Saw the the sign I saw the omen Hit me like a locomotion I just wanna know that I'll be okay Staring at the mirror Sweat dripping down my face And it's alright Tell myself it's alright I could have it worse but I could be doing a little better At the same time I don't think I'm okay How'd I hit the bottom of a bottle On a Tuesday I don't think I'm okay Think I need to tell someone Or maybe yell it til My lungs go numb I don't think I'm okay