I'm Not Sorry (feat. Tayla Te Raki)

Look I’m gonna give it a chance Let the thoughts rest in my head Cause in the morning I don’t want to wake up with thought of horrific regret How many times can it happen though Lying through my teeth To see it through the week Every time I look into this mirror all I feel is weak And I never do anything to change it And I know I’ve said this before But it’s her that I adore Every time I’m torn I numb my own thoughts To take away from the pain I endure Illicit toxicity to put my mind at bay I sit and reminisce of the happiness that I miss To force myself to stay Fuck I’m gonna give it a chance Conquering anything against the odds And fuck it I’ll leave if not I’m just so lost And I can’t understand it I don’t know what the fuck to think Because I know that she can up and leave At anytime just to see me fucking weep Ahh That’s been the problem all along I can’t leave without getting her to disagree My opinion’s worth just as much Now I can see what’s killing me Now I’ve gotta stand up for myself I’ve gotta grab hold of this worry I can’t let her take control It’s time to find my soul and tell her no I’m not sorry You had my heart locked away Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain Love burns in two different ways But ours started fires no-one contained You had my heart locked away Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain Love burns in two different ways I’m not sorry for it going down in flames Opinions weren’t even worth a word Every time I would support you with input Seen as a chance to cut me down Rather than receive a better output Yeah Your battle of truth is just a fatal and gruesome way to you refuse me You would me hold down knowing I’d circle around But I’ll be damned if you beat me I always seem to retreat Holding back my thoughts till I sleep Every single morning waking up with the hope for it not to repeat But I’m done feeling weak My opinions to be heard when I speak This is for every time you numbed me down I’m not sorry but I’m not done with this speech Fuck I thought we had it all Hearts matched under god to say no more Young love to conquer what was hushed as impossible Behind every other closed door And I prayed for this to last Childhood dreams made so real We were Beauty and Beast Cinderella with her feet too magical to ever defeat I’m not saying this all your fault because I fucked up and I know that But I couldn’t see clear I was blurred by the hope that the spark could ever come back So with a blindfold across my eyes I left our hands intertwined without knowing the lies I would repeat to myself that I knew I was fine With only faith love hope and a fucking desire You had my heart locked away Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain Love burns in two different ways But ours started fires no-one contained You had my heart locked away Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain Love burns in two different ways I’m not sorry for it going down in flames I’m never gonna change my opinion I’m worth more than the pawns in your kingdom Can you hear me now Am I safe or allowed to speak about how the fuck I’m feeling Wait let me make things clear though This isn’t begging I’m not wanting you to take my side Tell me how you did me wrong and now you know it And you just wanna make things right It’s too late It’s too late for that and now I know when I say my fate Is in the hands of my traits and plays That I plate for days That I’m never gonna come running back But as a last thing I have to say I swear I’ll never forget you You had influence on the man I am And please know that I’ll never regret you