Ego Death

Ego death White lights are surrounding me I can't breathe The thought of this keeps me from sleep Walking around in circles the taste of this strip taints my sight I'm blinded Alone empty and weak The clocks bleed Everything around me is pink I can't believe my feet keep walking towards the end of the street The road blisters and boils everywhere is losing me I'm full of sorrow No speech We forget the point in which we can return I watch as the world continues to burn Leave me here with my sins An option of pure bliss Crept into my skin Almost out The shine can't keep withering thin Flowers wilt In non stop sunlight Time passes Give meaning to my life I'm a demon An adulterated heathen Oblivious deceiver Cultivated by believing Question my desire Obligated by the fire Hold that thought the Turning begins to transpire Take a deep breath Lost my mind Trickledown like water I have nothing left to find Perverse Contort Justify Your own court Take a deep breath Watch the wind Collect your thoughts Hold them deep within Erase everything I've built Knock down my faith Remorse fills my lungs with guilt I feel my skin Tearing it off is my favorite sin Truly sought out to be more than light Life drains us Leaves us here to die It's the balance Collisions in my head I beg to be abandoned Utmost divinity The paper brings respect We're nothing but a disgusting whole Waste away with no regrets Your desire means nothing to the fire The road breaks apart again A drought is caused inside my mind Genuinely cannot see with open eyes Lost in the woods Stumble upon guilt I beg to be free (I must reflect) Please set me free I beg to be free (I'm just upset) Please just let me be I beg to be free (Cannot accept) Live without hate I only hate myself (That I am depressed) I'll never be free From this The sky is lined with a version of Black eyes Belligerent controlling Bastardized intent Breathing bliss Born into this You never let me live it down I swore to you I'd wear this crown Hearing every single moment of regret I've lived up till now broadcasted live and burnt into my skin I'm a living monument of everything you hate Don't try to hide your feelings I'll die before I walk back into the dirt You eat Away At my skin From the inside out I'm in pain because of everything I've dealt with These words echo through me Like material delusion in the woodwork I try to hide The emotional distress But I'm diseased This life isn't for me Everything seems like it's being brought to life "The mark of forbidden intelligence" No single disguise "All of your lies swarm to me like flies" "Unholy divinity" The oppression built upon disresptful desire Justify the ways I've been abused I see through everything even if I'm confused The light blisters My peaking has only just begun Double take The ground shakes Losing perception Looking back Yearn for more Counting the seconds as the sound of the ticking beckons Opportunity blessing my deception Mortal disposition Writing it all here Religious diffusion Looking at my reflection Am I infected with everything you left I'm not going to lie Hoping to never again open my eyes At one point I have to admit That I was being torn apart limb from limb Everything that I've learned I'll take it with me to my grave This is only just the beginning A newfound reason to preach about every feeling I've ever faked A newfound reason To continue this simulated game I haven't lost myself Or have I And I'm just making excuses Confusingly grabbing at my head as I shake it I can't shake this empty feeling Why do I regret so much Why do I regret so much I am confused I'm really sorry I'm sorry for being me I can't believe you'd really leave I'm sorry for being me This ego It must end