Lonely

I'm lonely I need you To hold me tight see through My phony life I drew I only cry inside I'm to Ashamed of the pain from the mind games, yeah I move I play, yet there's no getting away I lose every frame Snookered The shames, a bruise to my brain Everything is black Untamed attacks, migraine relapse, insane, collapsed He hits like Ronnie with cueballs Breaking a few jaws, snap snap blue chalk Friction between us, forming an addiction I dart to you, as I fall to my prescription I try to swerve him I do a 180 I'm trapped I turn in, he shoots he hates me He's like Van Gerwen, impeccable aim Bullseye determined to level up pain A technical strain, I'm mentally tamed I've had enough I can't tell anybody but you You're my love corkscrew I'm lonely I need you To hold me tight see through My phony life I drew I only cry inside I'm to Afraid if I tell my peers, they'll think I'm weird, a clear construct of a monster So I just bottle it up, keep on refilling my favourite cup, problem Mathematical equations in my mind Unpredictable persuasions that he finds Unbreakable invasions Dangerous thoughts Leave awful abrasions Forceful irrational actions, hate them absorbing my time He's an alien, core extraction Of the good thoughts that I long for Anchor slipping from my mind my soul He's gripping I'm losing entire control Faster than a concord, things I wanna conquer Take me far longer, he swings at me harder Than Happy Gilmore, whacking some golf balls He is the monster, thrashing my conscience I am engulfed in his tiresome problems Call fore! As he drives me bonkers I'm dizzy heads fizzy Illogical meanings hang around with me Psychological demons so hissy make me worry You give a not care in the world attitude You're the fuel that fights this feud, unlock corkscrew I'm lonely I need you To hold me tight see through My phony life I drew I only cry inside I'm to I was doing so well, no more second guessing I fell in a well, hit the floor a regression I wish I'd rise up, I lack the aggression Intangible thoughts they attach, my obsessions I know it's selectable, whether I let them go Or keep collectible, store in my head is full He's uncontrollable, hatched irreparable We are inseparable, trapped no one there to call I'm forever running on egg shells I turn to you when my head swells He keeps on ringing like lead bells I'm going mad poison the red cells Give me a drink, neck everything I really don't even like care what he thinks I'm snapping the link, fight me I'm King In this tug of war that we're in Nobody will die if I don't comply All he does is lie imply that I'm a terrible guy Victimised when he try try's doing me over this ain't American Pie But I'm mixing my drink I'm sipping whiskey and wine Thinking bout my fake life will it be the day I die? I dunno He's a nightmare though, scarecrow Craving the wheel of my mind ain't fair no Just cause he's got no brains in there no Doesn't mean we can share yo, he's a rare soul Thinks he's the Pharoh Well I'm like Moses No slave I prepare flow Make waves don head phones Used to be drowned by the sound of his voices, noises Now he's gonna drown in the sound of my music I win Any pain is relief to the torture he brings Who is he? OCD now I binge You're my hinge I'm numb when I'm drunk can't feel anything