Blessings & Stressings

He was just a lul youngin growin up wasn't worried bout' nothin' Knew of the drama around it made him Sick to his stomach Momma workin' hard payin' bills Been a hero like the man of steel She worked up ain't got no chill He understood even as a child Made it happen when it could never happen God was on our side Insuring we good nation wide Where I go he go you know I know I know Choppa sound like a monster when I was an infant Heard 'em makin noise late nights on the outside That man was sleepy so the Ruger sang him a lullaby 5'0' pulled up in the complex Tramautized like a Vietnam vet it was certain days when the Power was out And it was plenty times I had my doubts But my faith was strong Proved me wrong cause I was scared to death call that suicidal We was down bad tryna get up I'm not talkin' viral Did what I did you know that I gotta I am ashamed cover my face danced wit devil like masquerade Where do I go Heal my pain numb my soul Heaven like dreams but these demons After me Blessings and stressings Taught me many lessons I talk to the reverend Told me to have faith I needa bag and that's on the bible I pray to the lord and follow his steps like I'm a disciple Where do I go Heal my pain numb my soul Heaven like dreams but these demons After me Blessings and stressings Taught me many lessons I talk to the reverend Told me to have faith I needa bag and that's on the bible I pray to the lord and follow his steps like I'm a disciple Man it really had me trippin' Drownin' in sorrow I won't forget it Momma I'm sorry they don't know shit Fuck 'em all they supposed to be family Look out for each other like sisters and brothers They wishin' bad on our innocence Why they playin' dirty I'm really hurtin' When my time come stay the fuck back It's just only us and that's that I pray the lord my soul to keep really hopin' he watch over me Isolated like quarantine Bad to the bone just like I'm Jack Skellington I'm not a saint but I smell like Laurent ysl cologne Blessings and stressings Save me a spot up there in heaven so I can see family I never met Down here on earth I ain't been my best carry negative energy on my chest I was made this way gotta make it right Have a good heart I can change my life Despite their actions I could still love 'em but it's still fuck 'em I don't understand why it's cold summer Got these trust issues like a mofucka' no Handouts I'll handle it Cause it be real real real real hard to stand on it And I'm emotionally scarred no insecurity I'm on my guard Heaven like Heaven like Heaven like Heaven like Where do I go Heal my pain numb my soul Heaven like dreams but these demons After me Blessings and stressings Taught me many lessons I talk to the reverend Told me to have faith I need a bag and that's on the bible I pray to the lord and follow his steps like I'm a disciple Where do I go Heal my pain numb my soul Heaven like dreams but these demons After me Blessings and stressings Taught me many lessons I talk to the reverend Told me to have faith I need a bag and that's on the bible I pray to the lord and follow his steps like I'm a disciple The city in my eyes it's do or die Who wrote the script I ain't plan to grow like this Skeletons inside my closet Deja vu I seen it comin' like nastradamus If I go back make rearrangements I'd make my move Spin the block kill all my errors now I got the juice Imma new man wit a different story in the same chapters Tell my young soul of all disasters that's coming to him And I'd get right to it You sound like a mad man fucking stupid if you make changes lose what you got Do you really wanna give that up You lookin' down the barrel like It's worth a shot That's a high risk cause your life's a gift Where do I go Heal my pain numb my soul Heaven like dreams but these demons After me Blessings and stressings Taught me many lessons I talk to the reverend Told me to have faith I needa bag and that's on the bible I pray to the lord and follow his steps like I'm a disciple Where do I go Heal my pain numb my soul Heaven like dreams but these demons After me Blessings and stressings Taught me many lessons I talk to the reverend Told me to have faith I need a bag and that's on the bible I pray to the lord and follow his steps like I'm a disciple