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Did it on my own Issues had to face Still lost been alone All I see is hate She told me that I'm different I hope you never change But she don't know the times that I almost gave into it all my faith Been a little struck I saw me for what I was I see things that you don't get These days I can't really trust All these people that's around I created all these sounds I created all these ghosts I keep this shit to myself All these fucking conversations I can't tell if those were real These days I can't even think these days I don't feel fulfilled After all these years with my back against the wall and I'm fighting still It's too hard to even notice half the time and that's been my biggest fear Tryna walk down this path I made Thought I was made just to create Create a world for my great escape Running all over switching lanes Stuck in this cycle that's how it goes Living with thoughts that just won't go Dead but I just saw the physical All in my head man it's all a show Tryna live with all my sacrifices Everything that I was sacrificing Living with pain man so obsessed with this life I'm living had to find some vices People look at me a little different Keep it all to myself dismissive Moving forward I got love y'all but there's a couple that I love from a distance I'm everything that I never wanted I'm sick of myself what I've become Keep telling myself of all this nonsense Came a long way of where I'm from So why the fuck am I in denial that's not the way that I taught myself Steering this ship in the wrong direction lost and directed with no fucking help I Put the weight all on my back I went through it by the time when you passed I was stupid from running away but they couldn't relate to the loss understand I was stuck in the system like all of these kids we were here for no reason but just to survive Know I'm addicted I hate to relive it but those were the moments when I was alive I was scared for my life all these families I didn't know what to do stuck in the mud All of these questions that I couldn't ask cuz I barely knew you, you already judged Been through the madness i saw all the chaos we never connected man there was no love No matter what happens I know that you're here for me I'm doing this for my grandmama above