SPRING

I charish love deeply until I lost the feeling  The circumstances I was in was truly unforgiving  I gave it all to a queen I really thought was fitting  But we dont even talk no more communication Slipping  Now I'm building up  walls that people never Breaching  And you could call it what you want my self esteem Was weakened  I put my pride to side  Don't know what I was thinking  I guess reality is stronger then dreams  Made myself believe that we was a thing  I needed clarity  Now I'm drinking liquor with niggas I really hate to Be Feeling this option that would numb all the pain Take my breath away from this girl Mary Jane  Fishing in the ocean that these people often speak of It never do work me Always did the worst for me  Ever fish I cought I had to throw it back in  I'm convinced everything I had fling It's rare to catch me venting bout my issue  That's my issue  I'm so stubborn with it  I never share my feeling  I keep it locked up in the cubbert Where it shall remain to be  For all eternity  Spring suppose to be the time we come alive  Lately all the love inside my heart has died Spring suppose to be the time we come alive Lately all the love inside my heart has died I'm like f that I cant show no love because  They heartless  I might fall back into a pit of darkness aint no calling Lost my contacts, now I can not reimburse my losses Ain't no call backs I just get the dial tone for the longest Where your thoughts at, erase all your memories like what dont recall that  Funny how some people love you only when you spend cash  Till they find somebody else balling then they draw Back  Boy I find it funny how they draw back  Imagine me tryna steal a person energy  When all they gave me was there love and positives  And I abuse it for somebody else thats into me  So i ignore them tryna channel somthing differently  And that went sideways oh yeah that went sideways  Knowing are potential could a spark a human Alignment  Always kept it passive, I was showing to much  Reveling all my weakness, guessed I cared to much  Misery Misery Misery truly loves company  I always peeped I always peeped How you came around and stole my energy  Run little one run little one run  Run little one run little one run Run little one run little one run Run little one Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope Fire burning  Passion and desire got my feeling going Fire burning  Never found a love that could be eternal  Fire burning  Passion and desire got my feelings going Fire burning Tell me what Is real is it color coded