Sick Wishes

Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop I'm sick of spending all my time alone inside my room Cause all I do is vomit puke words onto the pad in the booth I spit 'till the mic splits in half and goes boom While this hand is about to go back to the tooth biting nails to try and sooth All that is my life I knew from the moment I had my injury No one would even consider me without being exemplary while rentering and no I don't want any of your pitty please treat me As if I'm normal don't lower your expectations be Disappointed when I fail I can take an "L" defeat is something I regularly see I've been trapped in this combative stance of active trance Ever since I lost my sence I guess this is the aftermath of having that stroke Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop I wish that I could relive all the time that I lost stuck inside a daze Depressed everyday was a disorganized mess I was always looking for somewhere to fit But everywhere left was already taken Didn't even have a blanket to be covered with in bed Started thinking maybe it just wasn't ment to be started wishing That I had died in that hospital spent Most of my time holding a grudge against my savior Cause they couldn't warp time and space and make it so I was safer But now looking back on it I could've been dead Could've been lowered into the dirt with my family starved with regret Could've been left with permanent damage to my head I could've been stuck in a wheelchair for the rest of my time on this earth I'm blessed with Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop I've been streching myself thin 'till the point where I rip Trying to hold on to this bar but I'm loosing my grip Fighting the urge to say goodbye can't empty this clip Gotta stay alive there must be a reason I'm still here to kill fear and build gears to fill cheer in I'll peers with chilled tears they still wear on their face This pain is real but can't it be healed God I wanna be able to canopy kin from tragidy Sin dramatically ends humanity then saddening kids Teens vanishing in depression tell me when will it ever end Scars are left grow small though cause kid is when they set No bar can express my chared up regrets im sick with Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop Sick wishes burning relationship bridges and docks Sick wishes buried dreams up just to visit the plot Sick wishes can't even settle this beef as it rots Sick wishes circle my brain as they never stop