Higher Self

I wanna drink I wanna smoke wanna pop a Molly sniff up a rail And choke I had to Runaway high so I wouldn't come back low and I still haven't been home Addicted to that feel on lockdown All I had was dope Misery my only friend And the substances keep him company my lungs and heart laughing at me Like life's one big joke Up the blood stream Into my brain watching the world in slo mo Ambition gone brain Cells smoked they want you to promote that poison then they'll call you the goat Rest easy juice hope the gates opened for you Miller The precipitation of getting out of your head gives a false sense of fitting in... Once that fix locks up your soul you'll Lose control hoping today that urge won't grow because Once sunk its a lifelong climb to not stoop low... Even after your lowest there's still hope recognizing Your life means was meant to be more than a chase how to replace that high With something that means the most your health I know once hooked the drugs never let you go but that belief in Yourself And your willingness to want to live will set you free... Use to have to smoke two joints in the morning to feel alright And smoke two joints at night to be right... Now when I wake I take two shot of black seed oil and two shots of sea moss at night.. Gotta thank that pharmacy that trying to give people health And help their wealth the pandemic life Had you stressing reaching for your vice got our brains programed Without the high something don't feel right When judgment's cloud its hard to see new sights can't look your baby in the eyes And be able to offer stability... once the dust settles we on the other side better Wouldn't use those poison for feeling when numb Then a shot in the arm got you resurrected God always is forgiving another chance another breath Another life wouldn't let the toxins win another round another fight ten toes Down Winning another day bc sobriety takes flight Everything in moderation recognizing no battle is won over night Its a long haul Believe in the strength of your inner will to get it right... Pray you overcome the addictions of a fix And become addicted to your success addicted to your wealth That steams inside yourself.. at the lowest only one way out up out The ashes self perseverance recognizing there's a Better way to conquer your stresses than the substances Wash it all away to re kindle your light that fire inside burning And never diming seeing better days as our eyes open wide Our minds free of the toxins free of the statues getting off that wheel And giving new meaning to life precious is every breath and finding every way To push through come to far to let the rabbit hole sallow your soul I believe in you After the rain the sun always comes through heart to the sky Hope you'll chose to live over the quick fix blessing Health happiness and good fortune for you and Yours these fixes don't control you these toxins wear us down No more mind body and soul reform as one Putting down the drugs and picking up life our spirits steady soaring Our urges kicking but the strength of our will allowing us To make it through another night...