The Talk

I was hoping one day we could go and have the talk It don't matter where it is we could even go on a walk And it's mostly for me because I was never really taught How to show my emotions and put everything on the spot But it never fucking happened and now I'm feeling so lost And i never could of imagined and never woula thought That I'd never get to tell you what i felt and what i sought Feeling stale like i am cardboard I guess it's time to unbox I can't get enough of you it's looking like affinity Affected by your love and it's an outbreak epidemically I'm fidgeting so frigidly I cant think of a simile I'm feeling all these feelings you can call it femininity Yea Like it's time to put an end to me And Put it in perspective i could love you times infinity Admittedly epiphanies are suddenly just hitting me Like you could never imagine like what you really did to me I tell you that you're beautiful I'm trapped inside this cubicle I want to let you know that you are far from all the usual It's scutrable I wish that it was mutual I wish that we could go and find a way to make this suitable It's crucible And Maybe I'm delusional And maybe it's not doable But maybe we could find a way to make this institutional But maybe it's immutable And we are nonrenewable And I just wish that i could find a way to make this provable I don't even know if I can keep on keeping on I wish that you could just hear me i don't like to make these songs I'm hoping that you don't listen this shit is sounding so raw I am talking bout you publicly doing everything wrong For a minute I was livid I'm hoping that you don't get it And I'm tryna live my life but this shit is a fucking gimmick And I'm timid for the women that shit is a fucking given But with you I'm brand new and I really do not get it I can see you perfectly the image is so vivid And i know I always lie but imma try to be indicative And now that you know that all of my interests are definitive I'd tell you what i feel but i cant find another synonym From your side of things and all these feelings unsolicited My actions in the past and i was always fucking intricate I never opened up and i was never really intimate I tell you what i thought but it was always in the littlest Imprisonment It's imminent I'll never feel significant Again in my life and nothing will ever be equivalent I tell them that I'll live but I don't know if that's legitimate I tell it to myself but I've never been that articulate I never see you anymore and everything is different When we were together i ain't cherish it I'm ignorant The way that you would look at me when i was speaking gibberish And now it's all a memory I'm living in this bitterness Can we take a seat so i can tell you what you mean to me I didn't go to places with you only for the scenery I went with you to places cause i knew that you would be with me That's kinda cliche Let me think about a scene to be Life's a box of chocolates I wonder why you're sweet to me I'm hanging on this Ferris wheel I'm holding on to guarantee The boat done crashed into the ice Only one can leave I'm freezing in this water from the ice Can you sing to me I don't wanna lie that was kinda sounding cute And my life is always quiet so I'm always kinda mute I wont say that I'm biased but i don't know if that's the truth But my life is only ever exciting when I'm with you And I know I'm good with lies But know I'm telling the truth And i feel like you could tell The way I'm looking at you From a distance you might miss it but close up like what a view Cause you glisten in an instant I'm opening up to you A little too late and i guess I'm looking for some closure I'm Sitting in the back and my feelings are taking over They driving me crazy because I told them they could chauffeur I hear your name in public still looking over my shoulder Yea Up and down like it's a coaster What's the point in trying this shit is so fucking over We don't even talk anymore it's like i don't know ya You mention me on socials got me feeling even lower Maybe i could move on and i find another person But she hurting cause I'm nervous and i don't know if its certain A conversion to new version but what if it isn't working I'm a burden to her hurting cause it's you in all my verses She worsens from the bourbon and you know she don't deserve it A dispersion of the persons cause it's you I'm only yearning I'm a servant to your service and she's telling me it's worsened Reassertion to my searching cause its you who holds my purpose Yea