A Soul He Can't Afford

Full of struggles, but passion makes it a little better Love, too though I can't seem to put in the effort Wish I had the courage, tell you we should be together Then I'd lift this weight and you could hit me back whenever I'd fall for a girl, when I never even met her Ready to give up, but look, a little ray of hope I want to freeze time, when I'm with you can we take it slow Here's the truth, if you ain't texted back yet I just wait alone Still, when I'm busy every minute I would check my phone Question if I said something wrong, or if you're bored of me Did I come on too strong, you ignoring me? My thoughts are overwhelming me at night, I can't recover That's why the morning comes and I feel like I'm in the gutter And everything I hear, goes in an ear and out the other I can't see in color Wanted to organise my thoughts Got me mortified, it's borderline a way to name my cause of death I'll fortify my heart to keep the cracks from falling off This shit is for your eyes, I'm pouring wine, the story that immortalise, now I was born in France and raised in Cali Grew up in the heart of progress, Silicon Valley Had a little rebel phase, devil face So every time I acted outta pocket teacher kept a tally Never had school spirit, never lost my voice from class rallies Except for senior year, that was like our season finale But before that, I was a hard working student I got influenced by my peers, and I started acting stupid Got obsessed with my image No longer playing soccer during lunch with kids one grade below That was before I found music, uh And looking back, I realise that I was such a loser But I'd still do anything to go and relive the amusement I tried to make a deal, trade my dreams, for a corpse Devil told me that I got a soul he can't afford Shit hasn't been the same, since my parents got divorced Since I listened to Juice Wrld, and it really struck a chord Long live your spirit World changing lyrics Featuring my heart It made an appearance Searching for my dream, it's cold so I ain't even near it Ain't prepared for life how can they tell me not to fear it I'm here and I'm hearing your whispers Say I show promise, wipe your tears and I'm gonna deliver Same day shipping with the Amazon prime You and I are not so different it's an analog sign You saved my life, if you need I'll lend you the hand of god, I Feel like Maradona, goal of the century Check the bank lotta commas, I'm sick of drama She took me to a place I've already been laid in, Osama Ye said ima get on this TV, momma I promise you that's it's true Whatever the issue, I'm comin' through You my inspiration Speeding on the highway life got no limitations That's why I been impatient I pour my soul out on the mic when I'm too timid to say To say anything Too timid to love, take a knee, and give her everything Ever recall a certain memory and wonder how I really felt Well you get no answer, the music speaks for itself, no answer No answer What's a memory you can't remember What's a memory you can't play back forever If nothing matters, maybe I'll try what I tried before Devil told me that I'm still a soul he can't afford