You Have Me (I Kill)

Dark Winter, Dark Winter, Dark Winter, Dark Winter You will always have me right by your side Even though, you can never see me in my eyes You will still fear me and dread me, no lie I am the one that will cause you to die This madness inside of our world is still killing minds Kids put a bullet right through the eyes Pop some pills hit the tub I am the pain and desperation when you need a hug I am that nagging feeling that's always deep down inside It's always telling you "You better go run away, hide" I am the victim of the crime Need no alibi For this murder that is in the first person degree Dead on arrival you see I am the thoughts that you need You will never be set free You will always have me Parasite right in the brain These thoughts that you will never tame Swirlin' round you like a storm Takin your soul to the drain Why do I have all this pain? Cause I haven't seen her smile Yeah You know that it's been a while Seein' her face in my mind All this social distance makes you just want to leave life behind All these masks around Makes you think your face is a mistake So what's stoppin' you to take Listen to me, stay awake There is so much more to live for Think after the lock down Who should you be there for Think about that girl's eyes As they stare straight into yours Loving you for your whole life Now that purpose will be yours Love yourself and stay alive You won't ever need to cry Yeah, this is real life Teens are close to suicide But the government got power in mind Door to door with the pesticides Drop a stack to make you bow They'll never care, anyhow Or anyway that you will paint it They will profit while you painin' Curled up in a ball with anguish Cause you can't leave your own home Livin' life right through a screen As the days are passing by It just makes you wanna scream Losing years like you lose patience See it's all a lie It's just a flu The symptoms what they want to do to you The cure is simple really You have me And now you should do you You will always have me right by your side (You have me) Even though, you can never see me in my eyes (And now you should do you) You will still fear me and dread me, no lie I am the one that will cause you to die It was barely a month ago That Dylan Buckner took his own life It was a very silent, very invisible killer You know 450,000 people and counting in the U.S. have— have died of covid I'm fortunate in that I don't know any— any of those people But I do know one person who committed suicide There really is no doubt in my mind that the lockdowns, the isolation Absolutely contributed to his death