Faded

This empty bottle started out half full but I'm faded now I'm faded now I let this liquor start to fill my soul I need to lay it down lay it down I think these drugs starting to take a toll and I cant play around play around I already been down that road but I made it out I made it out I found a message in a bottle it said I had a problem I ain't thinking bout tomorrow by the time I'm feeling numb They said that I got issues I got problems that dont fit you I got problems probably with you when that liquor hit my tongue My demons get awakened from that liquor I been taking from the mistakes I've been making play out to the beat of drums Said I am not a pirate but I sit an drink in silence Feel that pain behind my eyelids dissapear with drinks of rum Once an addict always half a bottle got me stumbling through them hallways Cold heart feeling frosted like fall days me And my demons cannot seem to part ways It's like an arcade I play with my own fate during bar days getting blacked out everynight Having hard days I dont know how to refuse so I partake getting wild it always Cause a little heartbreak I already said I been an addict I already said I been a savage Everybody knowing what the fact is lit like matches till I hit the mattress Swinging for the back fence dont know where the cap is Sippin on the captain I dont do the acting Drugs keep my captive drink keep me active Probably this way till I end up in a casket This empty bottle started out half full but I'm faded now I'm faded now I let this liquor start to fill my soul I need to lay it down lay it down I think these drugs starting to take a toll and I cant play around play around I already been down that road but I made it out I made it out It's crazy how I always seem cause these problems with these idle hands Look into the mirror sometimes I dont know who the fuck i am I just wanna numb the feelings and I do it when I can This was not envisioned in my dreams or even in the plan Face is feeling numb again sipping on that rum again Decisions made are dumb again lady say she done again Pockets looking troubled thin issues often double them Tissues not enough for sins I make like they accomplishments It's never ending fight tho cold heart feeling frosted like ice tho Dark days so grey think its night tho bad habits I am quick to invite those Bad habits I am quick to incite those am I an artists or an addict how I write those Making moves or is it static with them typos depression in my head Got me like a psycho Got me like a psycho Fucking up my credit I aint even check the FICO making left turns Like I never seen a right road Said I quit using but im feeling like I might tho hard to find The strength for love I wanna fight for Hard to find the lyrics to the pain so I can write more hard To feel the same and feel ashamed And I dont like those Feelings in my body got me going into strike mode feels Like im slipping like im walking on a iced road This empty bottle started out half full but I'm faded now I'm faded now I let this liquor start to fill my soul I need to lay it down lay it down I think these drugs starting to take a toll and I cant play around play around I already been down that road but I made it out I made it out