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Nigga I hate the fact that you really died on me I hate the fact that most these niggas really rat on me Mama if they diss me when I die don't trip Just know that I'm the reason most they niggas in a ditch We grew up looking up to killas can't regret this shit Be tryna stay inside the crib but can't forget my grip Maybe I need to settle down and find myself a wife I got blood inside my eyes I just wan take a life I spent my adolescent years running through the strife Suicide was on my mind every other night I can't sleep while I'm sober monsters getting to me I never really mind pain it made me feel alive Maybe there really is a way that I can change my life I pray to god I don't play Stevie when it's time to see it If it was easy to fight this feeling I would've kilt this demon If it was easy to fight this feeling I would've kilt this demon Gripping steel around civilians kinda getting awkward I'm tired of fearing death I just wan get it over with I been dealing with this shit ever since a child Everyone around me didn't wanna notice it Sadness turn to anger and they blame me for it fine Just don't say shit when you see my ass on the news Don't tell me that you hate when you hear me sing the blues This the only time I really feel at peace of mind Smile inside the face of danger It's just how I cope Thinking to myself maybe I'll finally get to die If I'm being honest lately I been losing time The older that I get the closer that I feel to death Racing Racing Racing drugs don't even fucking help I done tried everything underneath the sun All it did was make me feel embarrassed with withdrawals I wonder if my mama happy that she had a son I gave this everything I got and Ion got no mo All my niggas fucking dead All my niggas behind the wall in the feds All my niggas names turn to numbers and to stone I gotta visit graveyards I gotta send mail now I'm logging into Jpay Damn