Strolling (with the sound off)

I'm strolling with the sound off cuz it hurts to hurt I'm sure that there's no meaning to this life but I'll search for worth Only time I ever get out rapped is my second verse vs my first In this life you Blow up like Nirvana or you burst like Kurt Never been one for the commotion train flows like locomotives floating in the ocean My brain is so potent, get down everything I've spoken I'm a black man winning nothing bout is a token Still I'm counting all my blessings the number's getting mad I'm counting all my chickens they all just seemed to hatch I'm counting on my friends they're turning into fam And I'm counting all the tunes Ive got and they're all gonna bang Hundred slaps to hater No time I'll see you later Devil's horn is my pen heaven's gate is my paper I'm greater than all my losses I prevail on top I said heaven's gate because you'll hail this bop Okay I'm shooting for stars sometimes I miss Pictures in my poetry, I'm Spitting my bars in hieroglyph Riding the wave like pirate ships There's a stairway to success and I'm climbing it or flying quick A lot of man will say that their your brother but they're Ryan giggs I'm strolling with the sound off, that's how it's meant to be Just me myself and music the perfect therapy Infatuated with everything that is heavenly Will i be here in a century? Strolling with the sound off, that's how it's meant to be Just me myself and music the perfect therapy Infatuated with everything that is heavenly Will i be here in a century? strolling I'm feeling the motions Patrolling my different emotions Fixing myself as I go cuz I know that truth is we're all a bit broken Hope to blow: mentos and coke Just so you know: never lose hope Losses are lessons: they're helping me grow Bopping your head a delicate flow and you know that I could rap a whole track with no beat, I'm that bold My punchlines have kickback, I'm that cold Call my Right hook Kenan, my left jab Kel, they'll leave you feelinga funny, I'm that old I got backbone I got mad flow With fresh fit and a afro I'm chilling with animals Right next to the bear's den like Glasgow woah Couple stomach shots and I would wind like saxophone Came to shake the party up like Banquo's ghost Kick in the door blaring 4:44 all you heard was: Kiran don't gas me no more Kick in the door blaring 4:44 all you heard was: Kiran don't gas me no more I'm strolling with the sound off, that's how it's meant to be Just me myself and music the perfect therapy Infatuated with everything that is heavenly Will i be here in a century? I'm strolling with the sound off, that's how it's meant to be Just me myself and music the perfect therapy Infatuated with everything that is heavenly Will i be here in a century? Be here in a century? Will they mention me? Do i have the energy to be more than a memory? Is that all we'll ever be? Will my pen pay my pension if I'm patient with my pen? I'm thinking pensively What to we think on the penultimate breath? Have we really met the cousin of death? Are we really met with Colourful steps? And touchable depths? And something that's next? And is there a "rest"? A brink with an edge? Thinking ahead... Am I better off dead? Im strolling with the sound off You see when you're at your lowest, every days the same: ground hog I used to be the shyest kid in kid in school Abiding by the rules And admiring the cool Kids 0 social skills in my tool kit Feeling foolish Asking myself Howd you do this? Found a passion for acting and pursued it Had bare things coming, never new this When I performed... It felt like I could sort of fly Felt like there was more to life than being such an awkward guy But They'd Call me white all the time And when you're not white, that hoardes your mind like the Northern line Im strolling with the sound off You see when you're at your lowest, every days the same: ground hog Am I a stereotype for rapping how the stereo likes? blow to his nose like he's sniffing a line Does that feed in to my internalized gender divide Like naming my fists, I've never been in a fight I like my feminine side But if you're feminine with melanin You face a lot of prejudice It messes with your head a bit They hated who I was till I was numb to it like sedatives Tell me who that benefits at the end of it Im strolling with the sound off You see when you're at your lowest, every days the same: ground hog It may have taken a while but now I say screw this Unapologetically me, that's how I do this My Right hook's called Boris, left jab: Priti Patel, cuz under pressure they're both useless Punchlines and similes I sometimes say stuff because it's just fire, not because it always has to fit to me Do I need believability, or can you just believe in my ability? I really need to know, it's killing me Truss me I'll admit a lot I can be a little soft I said I talk to animals is something I do little of Don't even believe in God So my infatuations Are just fabrications Of my deep imagination From now on, all my past mistakes I'm mending Good vibes is all I'm sending Helping hands is all I'm lending I'm a Little bit extra like a feminine ending Never pretending Bending rules Dropping jewels It's a cruel blue world without Mac Miller Planet earth without his magic word's Brings more hurt with every verse Words of wisdom if your hurt Afflictions don't define your worth It's okay to cry don't disguise you'll make it worse The more I think... The less I think we'll have a future tense As time goes by we'll watch the skyfall, that's word to judi dench The problems in this world will accumulate like student debt And we'll go out together like it's Romeo and j- When I'm this hungry I could rap forever whacking on some Tuscan leather Hope that my endeavors can shine through despite the weather Whether or not I make it I just hope that it's inspiring Walking with my music in describing what I think I call it Strolling with the sound off that's how it's meant to be Just me myself and music the perfect therapy Infatuated with everything that's ahead of me Will you meet me in oblivion? Oblivion