Mind of a MelanColly

This is real shit man This is from the heart From the soul Alright, Yeah Look I had to Put my vices down Turn my life around Hop in the studio and put in work To find this type of sound That's why they like me now Spit it quick just like the lightning round Even off the top my shit is hot No need to write it down I see my dream in front of me Like the sites were down Hoping that they log onto my page And the site goes down Too much traffic Shows tryna pack em And take my mom across the pond Where people have an accent And maybe smoke a blunt All by myself and never pass it And conquer all my fears that often send me in a panic Yeah Cus those fears can do damage But positives outweigh em cus my dream is gigantic Fuck around with me, long enough you'll see talent I'm the one that's coming from this place Thats abandoned As far as rap goes South jersey roots House planted where the grass grows Used to go by colly castro But hope you call me colin No need for all the stage names I heard that simple shit can speak volumes And I believe it Man I believed it Cus believing that you cans the first secret to achievement But hold up wait up now Let me go and flashback Allow me to just backtrack Bout two years ago When I had Textbooks in my backpack Weed was in my knapsack Confidence I lacked that And I was thinking abstract Losing all my sleep Not even time to take a cat nap I'm rolling out of bed to go class and looking rag tag Just to learn some shit I dont care about Like nasdaq Now I'm all on my music shit working on my ASCAP Pulling up in a honda whip But in 5 years in a matte black Learn to bide my time because I'm 21 like black jack But one day they gone see I'll be across this damn map Hopping on these jets Just because my raps slap Crazy how I hop up on this verse And make you see there's another man Another person Deep inside of me That's grown tired from the nights awake I'd write but didn't sleep And is finally shouting out For all the I didn't speak Ain't it obvious there's pain in me From way back in my past? And the only way I let it goes By staying in this lab And by putting pen to pad I relieve this So go and drop the beat again So I can talk to someone that may need this Everybody's got a story Everybody go through shit Most the time we cover up No one even notice it We Laughing with our friends And smiling every time we post a pic Really bout to flip the switch Fuck around and load the clip I saw my homie take his life Guess he was over it I wish he understood the path to healing Was a focus shift But mentally we throw a fit Doctors diagnose the kids Putting us on pills Our mental health is now unfolding quick I mean this bogus shit is overwhelming Media is all pretending We won't admit it but we've grown dependent On validation from some person that's irrelevant On the internet When really should be hyping up ourselves man Not even on some selfish shit Really on some healthy shit Took some time alone To go and see just how some wealthy get happy You'd Thought I'd say money But nah I'm looking for that one thing That they cannot take from me Thats why I write these songs Thats why I make this music Its what I love to do Its expression in its truest Form See its The reason I was born To go and shed some light After trudging through that storm And now that I am out I feel the strength that's in my body I stiffened up my legs that once were broke And feeling wobbly The scars will still remain But my soul is feeling godly I sense the presence of these many angels that surround me Man I feel it as my purpose Put my soul up in these verses Entertain the masses while I'm here Up on this earth its What I plan to do And I'll do it then I'm outtie You tuning in to random thoughts of M.O.M.