How could I (Acoustic Version)

I always want What I don't have, that's why this didn't last When I had you I prayed for this thing, to be untrue Stuck on repeat The rain, the wind, clouds moving Away from me That's where I push all the good things How could I ever leave you like this When all I ever wanted was you And how could I ever forgive you for forgiving me What I made you go through How could I ever explain myself For thinking of someone else in my bed How could I ever forgive myself For destroying what I always wanted You're still the first one I run to When I'm alone And I always am At least in my head, I sing this song To make sure you understand This is not your fault It's always me The issue itself, Instability, Insecurity I'm used to it so much I seek it How could I ever leave you like this When all I ever wanted was you And how could I ever forgive you for forgiving me What I made you go through How could I ever explain myself For thinking of someone else in my bed How could I ever forgive myself For destroying what I always wanted I always thought you looked better without me anyways Always thought you looked better cause I take up too much space I always thought you looked better without me anyways Always thought you looked better with someone who's okay I always thought you looked better without me anyways Always thought you looked better cause I take up too much space I always thought you looked better without me anyways Always thought you looked better with someone who's okay How could I ever leave you like this How could I ever forgive you How could I ever explain myself How could I ever forgive myself I destroyed What I always wanted