Nevermind The Balls

Hoping, that my presence is assuring Feeling, like my steps are interfering Seeking validation but I'm fearing that you You will not commendate me Killing, just to keep the thoughts away Cutting, all the strings that hold the play Stabbing all your friends until they crack But I, I escape the spell you're casting in my tracks I can't see what you're saying I can't say what you're seeing My expression of distaste Painted all over my face Your eyes bleed memories of paper thin broken lies Nevermind the balls Trust me, I was that soldier Addicted, to dark humor built on lust Leaving, morals to perish in the dust Drinking, to numb the pain inside Mistakes, that will not leave you behind Reaching, out to find conzolation Expecting, to be handed motivation Concluded, is the chapter of your life Which is, deluding your perception of reality I can't say what you're seeing I can't see what you're saying My expression of distaste Painted all over my face Your eyes bleed memories of paper thin broken lies Nevermind the balls Trust me, I was that soldier I beg, to you and call Distrust, on my shoulder So I woke up one day, and decided to make a change To end my useless habits and improve my selfish way Pursuing an ambition to keep on growing The last sentence, only fuels my misdoings Nevermind the balls Trust me, I was that soldier I beg, to you and call Distrust, on my shoulder