Mind Talk (feat. R.A.M.)

(I can hear Aunt Shiela talking, I can hear Ayanna talking, exhales) I just woke up, I'm still exhausted, (damn) I can't believe it's been so long man it feels so awkward, (long time) Got out of bed and walked to hers you talkin' bout apalling, (Mom!) Hands shaking I grabbed the phone and held 9 to call them, (Hello) In my mind it's so vivid, (yea) Every morning relive it, (yea) Couldn't think of Kel number scrolled through the call log and I clicked it, (Sis!) It didn't seem realistic, Mid December it's frigid, (cold) Transpired so fast I'm talking 45 minutes, (it was quick) May have been less than that, I heard a knock at the door I just opened it no who that, (come in) Lot and apartment was packed, All I'm stating is facts, (all facts) EMTs did an EKG, Time lapsed they looked at us and said that it's a wrap, (can't do nothing) Call your funeral director they'll be here with a stretcher, (huh) Rolled her out into that hearse in that cold and rainy weather, (huhh) Took a ride to the north side in disbelief, (we did) 8 am me and""J"" went to see Uncle Reese... (Come on bro) Bloodshot when I open my eyes, Learn from mistakes, I'm wise, I'm not rushing my demise,I don't intend to let up, Only so much time, Sometimes I feel like I'm really losing my damn mind... Bloodshot when I open my eyes, Learn from mistakes, I'm wise, I'm not rushing my demise, I don't intend to let up, Only so much time, Sometimes I feel like I'm really losing my damn mind... (I can hear Aunt Gwenny talking, I hear Aunt Joanne talking, I hear Aunt Louise talking) Me and Rif running around 2 bad ass youngins, (Cuz) Wasn't for Marion and Phillip I would not know nothing, (my folks) Understand the shit I be kicking is true, (it's true) Uncle Marshall said talk to Matt, He listens to you, (right on Lamott) Laid back but I'm smooth like Uncle Tommy (Unc) My bike had a flat I'd take it to Mr. Ronnie, Inner tube in the water, (facts) Taught me patch that where it bubble up, (that's how you do it) I miss laughing with Huckle Buck, My Uncle Len, My Uncle Wink, We lose one every time we blink, (exhales) This is just a few that cross my mind when I sit back and think, (that is just a few that cross my mind) Look in the mirror I see my Mom in the reflection, Yeah it's upsetting but when feelings real you just cant neglect them, (I see you) It's things I wanted to do that I could not do at the time, (wish I could have did it) If something's bothering you, don't keep it bottled inside, (get it off) You know what I'm still gonna do it treat it like they still alive, (Yeah) Legends never die I know Greg is by my side Bloodshot when I open my eyes Learn from mistakes, I'm wise, I'm not rushing my demise, I don't intend to let up, Only so much time, Sometimes I feel like I'm really losing my damn mind (I can hear Aunt Sheila talking, I can hear Ayanna talking, I can hear Aunt Gwenny talking, I still hear my Mom talking) Bloodshot when I open my eyes Learn from mistakes, I'm wise, I'm not rushing my demise, I don't intend to let up, Only so much time, Sometimes I feel like I'm really losing my damn mind I grabbed the phone and held 9 to call them