Thank God

I dumped Ashe in my cup I Need to clean this shit out Now it's way passed noon Need to figure shit out Think I overslept Can't remember where I was or the chick I'm with And I was supposed to clock in at 8:30 Shit With a bunch of missed calls from my bosses boss Saying clearing out your office cause your fired George Then she reminded me I didn't put a condom on Funny stories brought to you from the underworld Can't believe I broke breed for a city girl Shoulda never looked back after toes curled My stick and move game weak as hell Cause I wanted love from any girl that let me get my fuck on In this chess game I wanna be the king But they treat me like a pawn And it's crazy If I woulda switched up like you did I wouldn't call you crazy when you try to flip the board That's a true statement Like when I told you I love you when we love making Sad to see you go but everything changes And maybe for the better I held it all down while you changed like the weather And I bet you stayed warm since I can't find my sweater So sick I been writing this love letter And it's not to get you back or tell you I'll do better Or how you fucked me up while perusing some new cheddar And I thank god Cause even when I'm slipping he on his job I don't pray enough and that's my Problem Nothing they can say when I go On One Don't believe in breaks so I can't stop 40 acres and a mule for moms house I been shooting for the stars with No Safety Filled with self doubt cause i lack Patience Finally got some help So I thank god Cause even when I'm slipping he on his job I should probably pray more but that's my Problem Hard to jump ship when I go On One Losing all my sleep cause I can't stop Until my brothers all together like a frat house We been shooting for the stars with No Safety Working this hard cause I lack Patience Finally got some help cause I didn't wanna live Some won't understand but understand I was a kid Only 9 and I had a few therapist And I didn't wanna talk to any one of them Cause what's the big difference If I tell you what that picture is Shit is black and white Only asked for help It came with a price I been dealing with this battle all my life By the time I was a teen I tried to end it twice I'm almost 30 so the struggle must be nice Jokes asides I been tryna get it right If you feel me then that means you been through this kinda fight I Hope you take my words as advice I hope you hear my words from the sky I wish I knew that pain on your mind I shoulda been around when you cried I'm not mourning I just wish you was alive It's different walking up the block and can't see your smile It's crazy I can't call ya phone to pull up right now We'll meet again one day Rest In Peace josh , Greg , Alyssa and Joey Really fucked my mind up and that's Till this day So I need whoever listening to hear me say It's ok to not be okay Find help if it will keep you sane And don't crash tryna fit they lane It took a long time just to heal this pain So I thank god Cause even when I'm sinning he on his job I don't pray enough and that's my Problem Nothing they can say when I go On one My uncle want a truck so I can't stop 40 acres and a mule for moms house I been shooting for the stars with No safety Filled with self doubt cause i lack Patience Finally got some help So I thank god Cause even when I'm trippin he on his job I should probably pray more but that's my Problem Hard to jump ship when I go On one Losing all my sleep cause I can't stop Until my brothers all together like a frat house We been shooting for the stars with No safety Working this hard cause I lack Patience When you find peace you better thank god Thank god