FACE IN THE HEADLIGHTS

Sitting on the highway, I decide to call a friend I had a lot on my mind, too many questions in my head We thought a like, had similar views and conversations But ever since you wanted space, I needed you even more Shaking in my legs, scared you gonna miss this call Dialing that number, is she gonna answer at all Call tone, call tone, my only chance at the end of the phone After moments of dial tones, she spoke her hello's After a pause, I just wanted to ask if she was okay Hope her family was okay, and ask about her day She asked about mine, whimpering as I tell her I'm fine But I know deep inside that I was telling her lies Small talk and apologies, tryna ask for forgiveness Is there anything we can do to fix the issues between us Two ways this could end, she gives me love listens to my reasons Or she airs me with the distance, leaves me to suffer in silence The worst fears came true, as she gives me a no Conviction in her voice, as she tells me that were through She made me promise, I wouldn't hurt myself Its kinda hard not to, when you tore my feelings in two Not like this, please don't leave me like this Aidan, please let me go, its better off like this Please don't call again, its better if you forgot about me The sudden triple tone, why did try to call again Is this what its like to feel empty With my final hope at life fading Dial Tone Dial Tone My final hopes Fading Fading Fading As the call tones silence, as my phone falls from hand Tears fall from my eyes, with my heart beating so fast My heart suddenly stops, into a thousand pieces it breaks Tired of thinking for me, can't help much my head aches Its gets so eerie, when you think what the hell do I do now The thought came into my head there's no turning back now Picked up my phone, placed into my pocket Began the steps to lonely road, one hand on my necklace locket Turn to my right, looking straight into those lights I hope it's last thing I see before I attempt suicide One big step forward is all it took for this pain to be over Please don't fucking hesitate, I just want this pain to stop One last breath in my lungs, as I take the final step Stepped in the front of a car, the pain will like (Interlude) But she stopped the car, I ran away and hid I couldn't stand to face, what I just did 3 streets over, all I could do was breakdown and scream Head in my hands, how could I do this to me Stopped to catch my breath, why did I do that Somebody decided I wasn't ready to leave like that That's why I live life like it's my last day Cause your blessings are given but can be taken away I never told you the story, about what happened that night I hope you never have to see, your face in the headlights