Dirty Paint Brushes

2010 was a freshmen In high school with my best friend I was certain that we'd dance till the end Step up if you're next man If you breakdance come on show me With your spiked hair all jelled up never shake hands with a phony Always hate first if you know me Had a chip on my shoulder Tough father figure growing up Mum was a queen I'd never tasted defeat Till one day I hit the dust I ran out of luck Oh what a shame now Gotta carry that shame now You're in the same place how'd you maintain being yourself I was in the dark Swimming with the sharks Did I take it far? I was in the car cruising Did I lose it and didn't notice? Dumb with a little influence And we both had similar upbringings I would never think to listen to it At 15 some dishonest students Always like to have a little tease Better have your guard up around me A bus I'll throw you under you'll see Gotta retaliate or bleed yeah yeah Watch it See the line you're crossing Caution It was a time where everyone tried to fit in Some gotta lie some arse kissing One's shy always fucked with him Look at this cunt what's he fucken wearing? We were sweet Remember recess scabbing for a feed Portuguese burger at the canteen Then we'd rehearse our choreography Practiced till our Raben's hurt our feet Now we're too cool for the dance shit Drifted a bit but we still managed I made some new mates at the skate park We tried to mix but it fell apart What you after? Gave your first puff of the bud I was in the shit I'm the shit starter When you were copping it I was laughing I'm two people at once All g when it's us But when the others come I just can't help it I keep switching it up Not giving a fuck at all Everyone joins in after all Look at you pussy with your tight shirt and your black dress shoes Every one of us thinking the same I think it's true no fucken way I think he's Oh what a shame now Gotta carry that shame now You're in the same place how'd you maintain being yourself I was in the dark Swimming with the sharks Did I take it far? I was in the car cruising Did I lose it and didn't notice? So now True colours shown out A painting I'm not so proud of I don't know how To make it fade away Used to take shit Now I give shit To another bitch I don't give a shit But he just takes it Doesn't say shit Now it's standard Day to day shit I'm the joker you love to hate If I'm a dog then put me in my fucken place I got no reason to apologize I got no remorse look in my eyes What you jumping out the closet now huh? Disregard what comes out your mouth You could try to shout but no one will hear ya You were crying out I wasn't near ya I wasn't there Watch it See the line you're crossing Caution My hands are tied nothing I can do I been pretty slack to tell the truth How are you inside? You alright at night? Hope there's someone by your side tonight That's not what I'm like usually Different when it's just me Hope you can look past it eventually For now just let it be Oh what a shame now Gotta carry that shame now I'm in the same place how'd I maintain being myself I was in the dark Swimming with the sharks Did I take it far? I was in the car cruising Made you lose it and didn't notice So now True colors shown out A painting I'm not so proud of I don't know how To make it fade away Make it fade away Make it fade away I been moving so quick I can't stop to take a fucken breath I been clocking K's on this freeway just drove past the last exit I woke up today like a normal day Everybody saying are you okay? Yous were pretty close before weren't you mate? Deep down I knew who it was but couldn't say his fucken name Ay bra Didn't think it'd ever come to this neither Can't pinpoint it to a reason But I really did myself a favor I got no savior I fade away every single day and they got the same face on Everybody laughs everybody's sweet but I can't take it Last night dad slapped my face and the bruises on my arms caned All coz he talked shit about mum and I talked back swear I wouldn't change it Divorced parents that don't get along I'm caught in between where do I belong? Had my fucken guard up for so long I been feeling down for so long For so long Starting to think about who my real friends are Calling me a fag for my gestures Should I change the way that I dress so I can be accepted? I don't even know who I am anymore you know who you are If you're reading this then you're part of it Keep laughing it's all good Walking home the same route got me thinking If I step off the curb in front of a bus then will everything be all good? It'll be all good I love you mum for all that you've done I guess I don't say that enough I just wish I was a better son when it rained and you were going through it I want you to know that I'm so sorry and it's not your fault I promise I've made my mind up and this is the only way I know out of this forrest Coz I'm living in the dark And no one can even see me So now True colours shown out A painting I'm not so proud of I don't know how I don't how To make it fade away